There was a time when im been in a lot of stress. Didnt kniw to what road to take, what choice to make. A fight between a brain mind and heart mind,
one another cross at same time. God and bad, right and wrong, up and down, what to do, where to go, basicly a really really big wtf. I write this
above just to u know how talking to withself, or better to say reading myself is very helpful. Then, a basket of questions, statements, and thoughts
writed on paper, everything apsolute. And then i answer to my self, even if i know what is in basket. Just watching a demolition man with stallone
sly, some chicken pops song annoy me. Where i was stop, oh yes, then when u reading your questions and answers u get a whole new peespective on your
slef and realise how is all simple, wel more or less, at least cinfidently i can say, things become more clear. Prepare for next folks, i just hit
Hihi.since i yesterday writed a wall of text, and few minutes after i was in my bed, and i reply on couple posts. U are make me happy, and i smiled so
loud so. Uh lol, i just shold write big lol.lol.. >> Since a firs post i wanted to write a whole night. but there is limit in characters. Did i tell
you a story how i sucess not to sleep more than a month. From some reason im very proud of it. I guess. Im proud of my parents, they are my heros.
When im born, my father installed electricity for a first time in his village so i can have heat. We are come here in this city more than 20 years
ago. We, my parents, and my two sisters, and me. They did not have any job, i remember my parents borrow some eggs and milk so we can have something
to eat. I remember when my parents get some chicken a whole chicken and give to me and my sisters to eat, and they sayed they are eated, but they are
not. From some reason i remember past today, probably because aunt of my father died, i called her grandma, as other older women who keepin me when i
was little. She was a good person, a really really good. Look enter coming 3..2..1. Woohooo
I donwloaded.. Hm. I just realised how today i use alot of word "i" i this i that...
A lot of "i". Robots will never be as humans, never will they have a flow of thinking, just they have a a parameters of processing. And yet we still
does not same, or so much different, well myybe in one thing, a spirit, a soul, a feeling, a one teeny feeling who can change a whole life, a whole
brain, a whole hole. Hihi
yea, a feeling. Love is most powerful and most dangerous thing on earth. Source of evil in a lot of people is love itself, love toward bad things,
love toward good things, a love never seen, a love never admitted, a love never returned, a love never given, a love. .. In nothing. A love to word,
is created sword, and sword denied word, and word..umm nothing drop me to finish that poet. If i must chose a favorite invention of all time this will
be a written word, and pen or stick. Hihi. So.. sticks.. I was once a seen a girl on 24/7 bar on lake, and we go to home, but i thinked of her, so
hard, so hard so painfully hard for straight six hours. Yep. Im proud of that, i thinked of her, u get it what it is, without additional stuff, inwas
so clear. Ok, enough of that.
Viagra is basicly a drug, and above written is haved so powerful effect like viagra. Just thinking of her, and she was soo beautiful hot. Stop.
I go smoke one. ... Life ismgod. In fact never been better generally, a lot of options, a lot of possibilities, lotmof choices, a good and bad ones.
When see where my grandfather, grandmkther, father and mother, where they lived in old stone houses in wild, and when see us, we are good, have heat,
electricity, a lot of education places. Etc. Generally is good. To be noted, a parts with enter and paragraphs, is when imstare tomwall or floor. Hhaa
lol? lol. Curently considering to go away from home for sometime, just walking around country, to feel freedom of nothing, and peace of mind outthere,
one more time before i start my own business wich in it i will be up to rest if my life, probably, who knows. Thats one of my greatest wishes. One
summer i was go outthere on vacation trip, and decided why to go on sea and party around, instead i go to my favorite lake in wild away from
mainstream ecverything, turn off phone and all, what a peace moment, i get a knife, water, some sandwitches, bacon, couple beers and salame, and lived
outthere on lake away from everything, a whole two weeks. Somethin i will never forget, so little i haved, but yet so much, a views, sunrise and
sunset, brushing teeth in lake, refreshing, walking and bathing in lake,view on birds and mountains changing color in every momment in day, a freedom
of life to smell clean air in morning and evening, whisper of sea weawes, silk wind on face, refreshed every morning, sleeping under stars, a pearl
moon light in night. One of best times of my life, even if i get alzhaimer disease im sure i will remember this. Want to say only: so little and so
simple free things we need to be complete to feel life in every breath
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