posted on Jan, 21 2013 @ 09:25 PM
Very brave of you to lay it all out.
When I was in my late teens, I noticed that I felt "half alive" -- like I was trapped in my body but not fully in it. Weird feeling. It's stayed
ever since, but either I've gotten used to it or it's lessened. I remember trying to explain it to my then boyfriend, and boy did I feel stupid
doing so. But I understand the feeling.
I've had chronic fatigue since getting very ill in high school, but it wasn't "diagnosed" until about the last decade, but I knew I had fatigue.
It colored my mood, my interactions with family/friends, and my ability to concentrate, learn, etc. At one point, CFS was so bad, I had brain fog that
was impacting my work, my ability to speak (I slurred my words sometimes, forgot words, etc.). I couldn't even balance my checkbook.
Over time, this has turned around dramatically. Here's what I've learned -- water-- healthy (not tap) water -- and lots of it. I tend to always let
myself get dehydrated and it causes weird stuff to happen to you. Organic food as much as possible. Good Vit B complex, Vit C and Vit D. I found an
incredible chiropractor who has helped me so much, with herbs, vitamins, energy work.
Maybe think about gentle, long-term detox with herbs, water, teas, etc. If you have mercury fillings, if you can afford to, get them replaced. Read
about the liver. I now think CFS (and many other problems) might be because of liver overload, that impacts our brains by allowing toxins to reach
You owe it to you family to do whatever you can to physically get yourself as healthy as possible and see if you "half alive" feeling changes.
Best of luck to you. You'll be in my thoughts.