posted on Jan, 21 2013 @ 09:13 AM
Hello all, I wasn't sure which topic to file this under, I'm sure the Mod-Gods will sort it out.
This is the story of my war against depression.
I have had a school/work mate and a neighbor commit suicide and yet only after they've passed away were people talking about their depression. All
people could talk say was 'he seemed unhappy', but when these people were alive the topic was never raised.
I know what it's like. I've suffered severe depression for almost twenty years, for reasons I'm not willing to discuss. Every time I've been in a
depressive mood no one cared, even friends. Their reaction is to talk louder or ignore you entirely. Everybody who's suffered depression know what
it's like, you're seen as a 'buzzkill' or are accused of bringing everyone else down with you. I've even told a friend that I was finally going
to do it (suicide) and the answer was "how do you think this will make me look?".
You'd think the obvious answer is to find new friends; this is one problem. When you're down in the dumps your confidence and self esteem are too.
Personally I've never had these two attributes, but that's only half the problem.
The other half is the public's opinion. My grandparents still don't believe in mental illnesses, aside from actual 'physical' mental disabilities
such as autism and brain damage. When you have a problem like Depression or anxiety, everybody who knows looks at you like you're broken, and it's
hard to get close to anyone (especially women) for that same reason.
But I think I've finally found a way that could end it once and for all; I've started thinking that depression is like cigarettes.
Both are bad for you.
You can live without them.
You'll feel better once they're out of your life.
And it's helping. Just like quitting smoking it's taking a lot of willpower, but I am starting to feel better. It may take a while but I'm keen to
get it out of my system.
This method won't work for everyone, I know it's a tired old cliche but if I can help just one person then it makes it all worth while.
Thank you for reading, and I hoped I passed the audition.