posted on Jan, 16 2013 @ 05:46 PM
Okay, at the risk of anyone thinking I'm a basket case, I'll share my own experience with taking SSRI's.
In college, it was ridiculously easy to get on Prozac which was the new hot drug to cheer depressed messes like myself up. After about 15 minutes with
the Psychiatrist, I was given some samples (poor students always got a 2 week supply) and I was off on Prozac. I was praying it would turn my life
around because at what should have been the high point if my life,I was depressed, numb a lot and saw little hope for the future or point to it all.
I did feel weird initially but that passed after a couple days. I NEVER would harm someone or animals, nor have I ever had even an inkling of such
behavior or thoughts occupy me. Suicide, however, was something I attempted twice over the years and even now - in my 40's and free of any meds - it
still occasionally creeps up on me but more in a "I things get really bad" type option. In other words, having faced the prospect so many times
before, if it came down to it, I certainly would have no problem offing myself to avoid some oppressive world NWO Fema Camp fate, whereas many regular
people would endure it. But thats not really my point and sounds wacko-esque.
The point I do want to make - and one I have been very vocal about to friends and even my Doctors over the years - was that I have been on pretty much
every psycho active substance legally prescribed in ths country at one point or another during my life as a clinically depressed and later bi-polar 2
Dx. And every single time, I was placed on these life altering - and mind altering by design - medications with no more than a 30 minute session with
a psychiatrist (usually more like 15 minutes) that I see maybe once every 6 months, sometimes twice in a 6 month period. This is NOT the psychologist
you see every week that at least gets to know you over time and what you feel and think. The prescribing pshrink was also usually a resident because
I distinctly remember pretty much every time them excusing themselves to consult with the "actual" Doctor to approve what he or she thought would
make it all better.
I'm not at all saying a blanket "these drugs are bad" as I do feel they helped during some of my worst phases. But there were a LOT of side
effects, and the problem also arises in knowing when you may not need them any longer, the withdrawal issues if you stop taking them suddenly, and so
on. I was never sure if the times I felt bad or weird on unreal were me, the meds, not as bad because of the meds, or worse because of them - there's
no way to really know. And as they often stated "we don't really understand how these work" - sure, the inhibit the re-uptake of Seratonin but they
don't really understand much more than that. And they barely know you or what you think, feel, experience, etc apart from a 15-30 minute
The way physiatry is practiced in the US currently for the general population is a joke, and not a funny one. And lest anyone think I was on some
state funded free clinic schedule, not at all. I had a pretty decent job in IT and actually was seen in the System of which my hospital was a part (ie
I worked in IT at a large Medical Hospital, but the Psychiatric Facility was part of our Health System). Now my issue was primarily depression, and I
was never labelled as dangerous or abnormally crazy (as we're all a little insane these days), and my insurance covered most everything but a small
copay for each appt.
So in summary, my point is that Doctors - probably most of whom really want to help people suffering from things that often aren't even a "real"
problem but seem overwhelming because your brain doesn't work quite like it should - make the decisions to put you on a medication that changes your
brain chemistry and thus your life from talking to you 15 minutes every 6 months. How any of these doctors could recognize someone who might be a
danger to others or themselves - and whether the meds affect this in any appreciable way - is just not possible for a stranger to determine in such a
brief interaction, nor whether these meds affect you in any dangerous way unless you happen to spell it out to them. It's not any surprise to me that
so many people wind up offing themselves. It's not like the world s a very supportive or hopeful place - and the fact that Doctor who is oftentimes
someone's last hope is a rush you in, rush you out with pills and little to no follow up is a dangerous symptom of a much larger issue.