posted on Jan, 16 2013 @ 12:18 AM
I sit here on a cold ,wintry night,looking at the sleet and freezing rain covering my yard and my street.
I have but one cigarette left and a few beers.The kids are sleeping soundly,and the dogs are snoring loudly.
It's late ,and I must go to bed and cuddle with my sleeping wife.
But ,I can't.
I got fired today.
How do I tell her,when do I tell her.That is what's consuming my mind now.
It was such a simple ,stupid mistake,one little slip in judgment that will change our lives.
Our future seems to have just slipped away as if a gentle wind just blew upon a raging fire,and snuffed it out.
What the future holds,I don't know.But I feel this relief,this sudden freedom that I can not explain.
I feel guilty for feeling this way,but to me,it's a new beginning.A new adventure.
I think I will have that beer right now and that last cigarette and hopefully get off this damn hill I have been stuck on all my life.