Those who know me best on ATS know I often write about the different sleep states we go through as human beings. I’ve been through it all, or so I
Sleep paralysis, lucid dreaming, and even what I suspect may be a true astral OOBE are the norm for me. My narcolepsy only exacerbates and amplifies
the intensity and frequency of these sleep states (or so I’ve heard. Obviously I don’t know what it’s like to NOT be narcoleptic.) My dreams are
usually incredibly vivid, lifelike, surreal, and seem to last for hours. From what I read, narcoleptics are just expert dreamers. This is probably due
to the nature of the chemical processes happening in the brain and/or the REM rebound we experience. Narcoleptics dive right into the REM state
instead of obeying the 90 minute cycle. Essentially, our sleep charts look backwards! Just maybe someday I will write a comprehensive thread on
narcolepsy awareness as it is something I’m very passionate about.
But that’s not why I’m here now. I thought I had seen all that is sleep-related at this point. Perhaps you can help me with this one. I have not
googled it, because I am open to more than just the medical explanation. And most of all, I value your input and opinions.
I don’t drink or take any illicit substances
; never have and never will.
Okay! So what happened was I lied down for my usual naptime. I call it a nap but it’s more like a 12 hour block of uninterrupted sleep. Just after I
barely dozed off I was disturbed by a bright flash of light inside my eyelids. It looked like a hole had been ripped in the blackness. It was a fuzzy,
grayish hole that looked like plasma or something static-like. I opened my eyes and thought, “Alright that was different.”
I checked my clock to see how long I’d been asleep (about a half hour to an hour.) I was starting to get very, very warm and very lightheaded. In
fact, the lightheaded feeling seemed to affect all of my body. I felt like I had grown so light that I could barely move my body at all. I felt
disembodied! I tried my best to get up and go pee in the bathroom. Although I consciously willed my body around, I couldn’t seem to feel anything.
All I could do was observe from my eyes where my body was motioning through and make course corrections. Don’t worry, I didn’t make a mess on the
toilet seat! (Sorry, that was in poor taste. But the point was to show that I had decent enough mastery of my body even if I couldn’t exactly feel
it. I did stumble and bump into stuff once or twice, but nothing major.)
It felt incredibly uncomfortable though. I felt like I was paralyzed and the heat I was feeling was gaining intensity. I thought maybe my blood sugar
was low or something. I have been warned that I’m almost pre-diabetic. (Yeah, that doesn't make sense to me either...apparently I'm
pre-pre-diabetic. But it does run in my family.) So I tried to snack on a few pretzels sitting nearby. I chewed but couldn’t really feel it. I was
worried about biting my tongue or choking because I couldn’t tell how well the pretzels were chewed up. Then after I swallowed I did bite my tongue
to see if I could feel it. No dice! I was hoping the snack bring me out of this weird state.
Because it was really difficult to move (I felt like I had to will parts with my mind just to complete the motion,) I just kind of propped myself up
on my bed and leaned my back on the wall with a pillow between my knees. I was trying to stay awake hoping I could stir myself out of this stupor. I
was still drowsy and the heat was so bad that I had to throw all my blankets off (we just got a fresh coat of snow, so I know it was plenty cold
I stared at my wall which has posters and pictures all over. It is also decorated with fake flowers and leaves and vines etc. It was the most
beautiful and vivid thing I’ve ever seen! I realized how incredibly surreal everything seemed. It was dynamic and living now—the colors were
brighter and more captivating. It was like living inside a painting.
After a few minutes I just dozed back off. This was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced! I felt completely disembodied and felt very little to no
sensation. And yet, I had some kind of basic, inept control of my body. It wasn’t as easy as just lifting my legs to walk to the bathroom. I had to
really just focus my attention on what I wanted to do and it seemed like my body clumsily obeyed.
Was this just another narcoleptic system glitch? Was it perhaps a diabetic episode? I can’t help but wonder why that flash of light was a prelude to
the whole thing. Looked a bit like this except more grayish and more uniform (my flash didn’t have all those arms and swirls.)
edit on 12-1-2013 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)