posted on Jan, 4 2013 @ 09:35 AM
I occasionally visit this site to look for interesting stuff to go on and read about when I can't sleep. A good, story, a good report, something
worth looking up later. I had no plans to engage with commenting on this site before I read your post. I'm a 33 yr old English Schizophrenic.
Hopefully former Schizophrenic, as I've been off my pills for two years (with medical supervision) to see if I can move forward.I also suffer from
depression and OCD.
Your frustrations are pretty much the same frustrations I've always had, and still face.
I'm a european, and so we have a different attitude to welfare than lots of US citizens. In Europe we won piece by piece our freedoms, and welfare
system, bit by bit after a historical struggle as we emerged from the feudal system. This is especially true if you are British. Ordinary people were
doing the work which kept the country going, fighting in wars (keeping various empires going) and being treated like peasants for all our struggle and
patriotism. The historical struggle and context is very different in the US, I often notice perfectly rational people disagreeing strongly on this
issue (where they might otherwise agree) because of coming from a different cultural context.
I write this as I see some of the responses to your post, and a bit because of my reply to you. Left or right, the notion of a safety net is important
to any of our western democracies for two reasons. Some of the huge opponents of the welfare system think that it is premised on the notion that it's
just for freeloaders. Our economic organisation (and mutual success) in the west is based on a certain system of economic organisation which, in
theory, is the most effective and should benefit us all. But, it does rely on the fact that some of us will have to staff the factories, clean
toilets, wash dishes, etc. It is a bit premised on the fact that we can't all win. There will never be a country where everyone successfully runs
their own business. There's a bit of a kickback, 'sorry, but this is for the greater good element' to the welfare state. The second important
aspect to it is that, say anyone commenting on this thread has an idea which may improve the wellbeing of us all (e.g. a way of making the internet 7
times better) why take the risk if it may not work and you lose everything? We'd all benefit it it works, but the guy with the idea won't take the
risk (and why should he or she) if those they dearly love may end up with nothing. It's an argument for economic effectiveness. This is by no means a
I only wrote the above as I saw some of the replies to your thread. Just to say to you, 'screw them'!
Our situation is slightly different. It's about how to you get back to the world and allow it to let us contribute what we have to give whilst it
doesn't understand our position (and actually holds extreme prejudice towards us)? It's about self expression, how will society let us
I'm extremely confident and able, after devoting so much time to recovery. I have a reasonably good law degree (after a huge struggle to fix myself
to get there). But my CV doesn't bear this out, so it's difficult to get any job.
I've been volunteering for a while, helping out people on the fringes of society whilst staffing an office. Building up office and employment skills
in difficult circumstances. Despite my feeling politically fine with welfare, it was a way to remedy the very human problem of wanting to feel useful.
Nothing wrong with welfare, the problem is how to be a full human being? How to contribute. With my medical history it wasn't my fault I couldn't
get a job, but I still felt guilty about not working despite all the above. I found it by building up my employment skills whilst looking after my
fellow man (and woman) for free. It made me much happier, and will eventually make me employable I hope.
Fixing yourself, getting out of the misery mental illness causes, is a bit like digging out of a mine collapse with a spoon. I eventually got there.
If it's just getting to stability, the task is just as hard. There's some truth in the "if you seek you will find" stuff, but you need to be
resolute and take the pain and the weariness of it. I've no doubt you can get there, it's just collecting yourself, being assured you have the balls
to take it and setting out. Some days I get angry, because I know the deck is stacked against me. Somedays, I remember just who I am and what I was
before getting ill and I like the extra challenge. If society's gonna say these jobs are not for you, then look for the other ones you might not have
considered; writing, music, art. There's a certain freedom when you know that may be you best bet. You write well, why not a blog? I just mean to say
mate, it's all a pain in the arse. There's a bit of you that knows you can do it, and is up for the challenge, if you look for it. Oh, and for
people writing 'boo hoo' to you. They have no idea!