I'm curious.

Why does it matter who God is or is not?

Or where God is or is not?

You've been on a journey, and have done many things in your search. You've read many accounts of perspective in your path, you've considered many ideas, many facets of what it means to be you. But still ask the question who is God?

God's the story teller who asks you to tell stories to others. Stories that make us all braver, stories that make us all smarter, well rounded, better sharers, better lovers, more caring, better warriors, better fathers and mothers, better imagineers, crazier dreamers, more forgiving, better creators, better teachers, better inspirers, better psychologists, better impressionists, better robots or clones or tv personalities or birds or bees or corporations or governements, better pirates or game players or thinkers, better at failure, better at losing, better at winning. Better at seeing your name in lights or not, better at understanding your name can be used as can your identity and it's ok, things will put you through trials and tribulations, and when you wake up and realize it all...

Finally you'll see.

God's an idea. Not a set of rules to live by. God's a design of an idea that you live your life searching until you've exhausted all your searches and realize, he's never left the house. He's always around. He's you, he's me, he's your lover, your friend, your worst enemy when you need one, and your best friend when you have none.

But most of all. God is the storyteller.

And asks that you quit seeking his story out. It's out there. It will find a way of coming out for you to know.

He asks you this: Go find your story. Who are you? Now go tell your story.

Don't go to God for that. He can always be included in your story. That is, if he's a he.....

Originally posted by capod2t
In a dream once, I remember meeting with an entity (spirit, angel, guide, etc) who told me the secret. The answer. The solution. I was like, "That's it? That's the whole enchelada, right there? OMG! How did I not see that before?"

So I wonder if you were laughing at how simple things are once we know the "truth."

Blessings and thank you for contributing.

"Love, and do as you will."
~ St. Augustine

Yes, precisely. After all the contortions and mental gymnastics, it's pretty funny to discover the absolute simplicity on the far side of complexity.

Do you remember what this being told you? Just curious..

The best thing that happened to me btw in the midst of my experience and battle with "powers and principalities" was at the end of it all, when I looked up at the sky that I imagined/perceived to be bejeweled throughout every square millimeter (which it actually is) and thought I heard, in a faint whisper, "I'm proud of you son".

I tell you it brings tears to my eyes even today looking back on my "episode", that part of it, along with another "conversation" "we" had in which I asked for certain things (mostly in regards to issues of integrity and protection of that integrity) and a promise was made.

It was quite the experience, the result of which I can imagine others, like Jesus and the prophets having had a direct and personal experience with the living God who is an actual "who" with self-awareness in my experience.

I will offer you my personal opinion, although you did not really ask me, and you can disregard it if you would like to. It seems to me that you lack faith. The whole point is to put belief into something that cannot be proven, thus revealing who is faithful and who is not. It seems you are questioning God very aggressively, or often, instead of praising and believing in Him, which should be high up there on the priority list. If an effort is made to love God, to praise Him and learn from those who have come before, and written of Him, I think that things may start to make more sense.

You likely have been sidetracked by many non-religious religions. Of course some of the teachings regarding the natural world and vibrations and the like are probably true, but why waste your time with these secondary sources when you could go directly to the Creator?

I believe there is a God or Gods. I have no idea who it is or how to contact him though. It's frustrating.