I like to think of myself as a rational person, one who can usually discern (with ease) most situations, but something's happening to me and I can't
If people have read my previous posts I stated that I'd seen a UFO over my house, and across the street a couple of years back, this thing was huge
and triangular, it had a liquid like appearance of jet-black and made no noise - it was also firing a green laser into our local park (about 600
metres from my house) and rotating on it's axis, as well as (later on) warping in and out in different locations, it looked like it was folding in on
itself. This thing was RIGHT outside, I could of hit it with a stone probably and it was there for a long time.
You might be wandering what the point of me repeating that is, well bear with me.
Recently I have been having major trouble and it concerns a past memory, event that happened to me as a small child, I mean about 10 or 12 years old.
This memory was, until recently, repressed in my subconsious mind, I couldn't get at it, it's taken me 12 years of scratching and focus to remember
it, but now I do and it is LITERALLY scaring me to death.
I have never shared this with anyone, ever. Please don't think I'm lying or making this up because I feel crazy enough already.
I was lying in my bed as a child, and as children do I have the covers up to my eyes (I used to pretend it protected me from monsters) when suddenly
the wall window (large one) flew open opposite my bed and the curtains were pulled apart (this happened supernaturally, the curtains made NO flapping
or wave pattern, it was like they were frozen solid) and so was the netting. I lay there paralyzed with fear for about 2 minutes as whatever this
thing was obviously wanted me to stew in fear, then as I was getting it together to scream or move (both of which I couldn't do) something flew right
at me into my bed, and it stopped literally inches from my face, it just hovered there. It looked like a ghost wearing a mask, I can't remember the
eyes, only that they terrified me so much my heart stopped. It told me something (which I can't yet recall) and I remember it DID not touch me, it
just hovered there. Then, as weirdly as it had appeared it took off, the second it left the window it closed and so did the netting and curtains.
The reason I scratched to remember this is many-fold.
Ever since this happened I have been TERRIFIED of the dark, like it's a physical presence that I can feel. I can't sleep at all, I ALWAYS wake up
(sometimes paralysed with fear) and look straight at the exit to my room because I can feel something watching me. I can't walk outside without my
eyes being glued to the sky (thanks to the pyramid UFO) and I HATE large windows at night, as in I actually can't stand it. I once recorded my sleep
to see if I could hear anything because some nights I wake and I see lights that disappear as soon as I look at them, sometimes it's shadows too. I
sweat profusely if I try and force myself to sleep. And about 3 nights ago I was awoken by myself being 'dropped' onto my bed. I also have, out of
nowhere started to have major back problems that simply disappear whenever I go to get them checked! I have to surround myself in light or I don't
feel safe. I also wake something with a crazy rushing sound, like water, running through my head. Sometimes it gets so loud I think I'm under a
waterfall! Or it'll be a buzzing noise.
Guys I'm terrified, and I don't know what to do. This is ruining my life and there's no one I can talk to without being called insane! I have tried
ringing my brain and trying to think of rational explanations. Maybe I have OCD I thought, maybe it's anxiety or simply a fear? But it's not, it's
something real and it's still happening to me.
I want to record my sleep and watch the video back, that's how desperate I'm getting, but I'm scared to. I thought once I found God and asked for help
that this would stop, but it didn't. The fear's still there and so's the 'weirdness'. Guys I'm at the end of my tether, I no longer sleep and I've
become completely withdrawn. I don't speak to anyone and when I do I'm not all there. I can't think or function and it shows.
Is there any help for this kind of experience? Please don't call me crazy, I know it's unbelievable but I'm not lying to you. I'm currently typing
this to you all at 4:15am, I have work at 9am. This is now my life and I can't escape it, I've tried everything.....
I will record my sleep for a few weeks and take audio too. But I think if I find anything I'll die emotionally all over again!? HELP.
I should add to this that I used to sit in my garden about one and a half years ago and just sit there looking at the sky, that's how bad I got. I
would be out there from about 1am to 4am and I'd just sit there watching. A few times I did see strange things and I tried to 'communicate' with
'them'. I don't know why I did it, I knew it would terrify me. I INVITED this force back and now I don't know how to stop it. I sometimes wake up with
strange marks on my face and arms too, like weird red scratches and blemishes like I've been burned by something...
I nearly got my father involved to, after a 'session' in the garden he walked out to sort his motorbike out and ran straight back in saying that a
HUUUUGE shadow was moving silently and slowsly across the WHOLE of our gardens, meaning it would of been, in size, about 30 football fields. He said
it made no noise and was VERY low, but it looked like a shadow (it too was jet black)......
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