posted on May, 1 2013 @ 01:08 PM
I'm confused about why I am feeling the way I am right now. I don't know if this is the right place to post this, please point me to the right
place if it isnt.
I believe in reincarnation, so that is not a question. The question is about the term "soul mate" Just a little info: I've been married twice
now, and have had friends from my same age group, school class, etc. that have passed on recently within the past few years. I just hit 40 this year!
As these friends pass, it is sad, I say my good byes in spirit, but
Most recently, this friend that I’ve had since we were teenagers, died suddenly in a terrible car accident over the weekend. I had not seen him or
spoken to him in maybe 10 years. But ever since I learned of his passing, I’ve been so distraught, and I don’t understand why. I’ve started to
realize how I’ve always felt some connection with him, even though we were never involved romantically… and I realize I pushed him away for some
reason that I don’t understand, I just felt that it wasn’t “safe” for my situation at the time, to be around him. He was friends with my
then-husband at the time I felt the need to distance myself from him, we all grew up in the same circle.
And now I can’t explain this feeling of being alone in this world it is so strange! And I am married to a very sweet man now who I love dearly, so
I just don’t understand this feeling. Is this friend who passed, my eventual soul mate? Did I push him away because this lifetime wasn’t the
right time for us to connect? This is just so strange to me, but deep down, I know it’s something very real… my life (current) has been filled
with so much struggle, pain, abuse, chaos, turmoil, unhappiness, helping others up onto their feet, etc., I feel this lifetime is definitely a time of
learning some hard lessons, so the only explanation I can come up with is, if this friend of mine who has just passed, is my eventual soul mate, this
definitely was not the lifetime for us to be together… does this make any sense to anyone?