A few nights ago, I wrote about a prophetic dream I had in a thread here
. The main
theme of the dream was death. I remember the death very clearly, and I remember asking my dream to run through itself one more time to make sure.
Last night, my room-mate and good friend brought another good friend of ours over, a girl who has some issues. She is a very nice girl at heart, but
comes off as using people - she can also get abused by guys, so my room-mate and I are very careful with her. When we were hanging out, she mentioned
some things and I could tell that she really needed someone to hang out with.
Yesterday, I just got a new car, and today she called me up because she wanted someone to hang out with. - there was a bit of snow in the ground, so I
wasn't sure, but she was begging a bit. I tested out my car first, then told her I would head over because it seemed okay. Unfortunately, once I got
into the city, I got lost (I just moved to the area a few weeks ago) and by the time I had picked her up and gotten back on the highway, a nasty
winter storm had hit and there was snow and ice all along the road...
Unfortunately, I don't have much experience driving in this particular instance (it was a large, crowded highway and I didn't know how bad the ice
was). I was going the same speed as everyone else, which was around 60, when suddenly my car started spinning (I have no idea why).
I was completely relaxed at the time, and I was basically thinking, well this sucks, I had better do my best to prevent hitting someone and attempt to
stop the car by slowing it down naturally in the safety lane while spinning. Okay, so it took a few seconds to figure out all the maneuvering with the
steering wheel and everything to gain some control over the car. We swerved through a bunch of lanes to the left, and I was able to dodge a few cars
here and there and bring us, while spinning, into the safety lane - we were still going pretty fast, so I had to ram the barrier with my tail-end (I
was going backwards at the moment) in order to reduce speed. We hit the barrier with our rear end, bounced back out into the street, and then I rammed
the front end into the barrier, which stopped our momentum and anyway, we ended up facing the highway at an odd angle.
I checked everything out, turned on my signal, and got back on the road and headed home. Unfortunately, I have some dents (two) in the car and it
needs an alignment.
Here is the human part to the story - my room-mate was seriously freaked out about the fact that his two best friends had almost gotten killed in the
same car at the same time. He had already been freaking out and calling us to warn us about how dangerous the driving was before we wrecked.
My room-mate used to have trust issues with everyone (including us, even though we have known him for 5 years or more) but tonight, he looked relaxed
and relieved. I think he realized how much he cared about us.
I was seriously annoyed at the girl for a while for using me to come pick her up, endangering my life and wrecking the car on the way back just to
giver her a good Christmas with my room-mate and I. Her parents had just kicked her out of their Christmas party, so she was spending it alone.
Yeah, that's a bit #ed up. But in the words of Limp Bizkit, "Life's just a little #ed up." It isn't always going to be perfect, by any means. I
was hiding in my room, and my room-mate and our friend were out here hanging out - I was seriously annoyed at her, but eventually decided that the
best course of action would be to forgive her and accept her.
So I came out here and held her for a bit and explained to her that if I had been smart, I wouldn't have decided to come and pick her up, even if she
had begged. My judgement is better than hers, so I really should have known better. I also realized that she hadn't been trying to be rude and
inconsiderate, she's just dumb.
Really, the best thing I can do in any situation is what I think is the right thing to do - if I run into a mess, like that accident, the only thing I
can do is stay focused and try to minimize damage and then move forward.
In all, considering I seriously think my dream was warning me of a possible death (and the fact that when I got in my car, I already felt like I knew
what was going to happen), and that we drove home safely, and that I know there are people out there that would miss me deeply if I was gone - it's a
pretty good Christmas present, right?
Now the three of us are weathering out the storm and waiting for the roads to clear up before my room-mate brings her home (my car will have to be
going to the shop).
Well, there's your melodrama / action flick for the day there. There are some lessons to be learned in this story, but they are fairly subtle. Once
again, I don't know what I'm doing in life, but I do the best I can.