Probably when I was a kid and heard about a series of school shootings at high schools where people would bring guns to school and shoot and kill random people for no apparent reason. I found the concept funny and imagined a school with randomly murdered bodies everywhere and decided it was amusing to hear the news whenever they happened.
I have a secret phobia of water so I've fantasized about drowning people, or at least killing people and then disposing of their bodies in bodies of water such as lakes or ponds. There is something very disturbing about a body in water for me. My conscience does not kick in thinking about a little girl drowning but I can see why it would for you crystal. It would gross if I ever found a little dead girl floating in water but it would also fascinate me.
I have another instance where I realized I enjoyed the suffering of others, killing fish when I was a little kid, torturing them to death with hooks, knives, and fire was fun for me. I never treated my pets like that but wild animals were fair game. Also in elementary school I kicked one of my best friends in the crotch and I thought it was hilarious the way he dropped to the ground so quickly and almost threw up. I was ecstatically amused by that, I'm surprised he forgave me.
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Originally posted by December21st2012
Does having a forum like that help prevent them from acting these things out? Is there really any evidence to support that?