I am alone and this year will be a little different to other years. I was born an orphan and was adopted but that union was fraught with problems and
dissolved. My adopted parents buried three Children by the time I was fifteen - you cannot expect them to be undamaged.
However I get on with my life and have looked after myself since I was eighteen. Fast forward and I return to study and become a Police officer. I
become involved with my first serious partnership only to be devastated seven years later. He lies has an affair (with a woman who walked out on her
husband and three Children) and literally runs out of our jointly purchased home. I learn that I have been living with a narcissist - someone who
suffers from Narcissistic Personality Disorder - he did not physically or sexually abuse me but there were behaviours that I dismissed - silly me!
Fast forward again as I rebuild my life and continue my studies and become a Teacher. I have found where I am meant to be - in a classroom. Fast
forward a little more and my world is destroyed - completely - on every level because I adhere to my professional Teacher training and make a
Short lesson on what a Mandatory Report is for those who don't know. It is the forwarding of information relative to Child abuse - psychology has
taught us that paedophiles and predators are very careful not to be witnessed in action and we also know that Children won't speak out - mostly due to
threats to remain silent.
So - here we are - over the last two years I have fought the 'system' so to speak. I have to maintain confidentiality with regards to the actual
information but I am actually seven chapters into my book. (Have considered approaching the moderators to see whether I could serialise it in a thread
here on ATS.)
Essentially I have been branded as mentally ill - despite the fact I have seven medical professionals who state otherwise - including three
psychiatrists - with two medical professionals who treated me when I was hospitalised several years ago. All in all I am not quitting this fight.
Today is Christmas day in Australia and even though I have had many Christmas days alone this one is different. I have been victimised and bullied for
two years all because I put the welfare of Children first. The people who manufactured - yes - manufactured my situation will be sitting down to vast
amounts of food and surrounded by many people and - I - will not even feature in their thoughts. They deign to call themselves Christian - yes - my
situation involves the Catholic church.
I knew there would be people here on ATS and last year I received a Christmas card on my board - which is a great show of kindness particularly in
that I am not much more than a stranger to the person who sent it. I have no money because I was prevented my return to work - over two years - I was
finally terminated and no reason in the spaces provided on the official document. I have no family and the only reason I have survived is because of
my personal physician - who has never stopped supporting me and one work colleague who is a witness from the beginning. I will win this fight!!
Today is another day and I am going to be stronger because of the challenges placed in front of me. I have walked into hell to be with Children and I
will not walk out without them. No arguement.
Thank you for listening via my words. The only reason I can be more open about my situation is because I declined an offer of six months pay - if I
had accepted the money I would HAVE to sign a document that stipulates my silence on what transpired. You have no idea what is going into my book - it
will make your head spin. It makes my head spin and I am living it!!
Much Peace...to everyone, everyday of the year, forever...
edit on 24-12-2012 by Amanda5 because: spelling