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reply to post by AceWombat04
This will probably do little to make you feel better and I hope it doesn't get interpreted as disingenuous or insincere, because I assure you it is neither. I understand your cynicism and it sounds like it's warranted. I have experienced long term isolation before. But, nevertheless, for whatever it's worth, not only "do" I love you (in the unconditional, human sense,) but I guarantee some of my holiday love is at this moment intended specifically and solely for you. So... as I said, that may be meaningless to you. I don't know. But it is freely given.
I wish you the best. Peace.
Originally posted by mattdel
Thanks for the sentiment.
I am alone this year, as well as the foreseeable years ahead. I don't choose to be, but life hasn't seen fit to bless me with the things I want most, like a family or real friends. I've spent the better part of 2 hours today wallowing in self pity and tears, and I plan to recommence that activity once my ass starts to hurt from this chair. No need to pity me though, I do enough. 29 years of isolation from anything resembling a connection with another human has given me a very cynical view of the world, but for some reason the holidays make me weep because I can actually feel the love in the air, and I know none of it is for me.
edit on 24-12-2012 by mattdel because: (no reason given)