Hey all - advice?

Hello,
I've recently started coming across information about the Monarch programming and I guess just would like to see if anyone has any guidance. I'm 29 and have been diagnosed as Bipolar and have tried over 30 different medications of different kinds through a psychiatrist to treat all my symptoms. A lot of what I'm reading is disturbing and not settling well with me as it brings up a lot of "stuff" including just a deep unsettled-ness, body tingling, feeling of dread or something. Maybe familiarity? Any advice would be great.

"Stuff":
Can't remember early childhood.
Lived in Orlando, parents worked at Disney. At 5 moved to West Virginia.
Remember having what I thought was a dream as a child of being left in a parking lot and watching my parents drive away. Young, young child - 3 seems to come to mind.
Another dream that seems so real but I always attributed to being a dream is being at the Space Center in FL and sitting in a theater like room. Watching something. Again, very young - 3 or 4.
On 18th birthday got a black butterfly tattoo on bicep, then short while later got a big butterfly on lower back. Never thought of why I chose butterflies.
Can easily turn off emotions, pain response, or shift to another emotion to replace one.

I feel silly now, but there is more. I've been having feelings of maybe a psychic something. As if maybe someone is trying to connect or contact or something. I'm just all confused and feeling like maybe I AM just psychotic.

Thanks for any info or advice anyone might have.

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Um................welcome.....but you're gonna have to put your 20 posts in first. Sorry.

same here, welcome, say hello to me and thats another post for your post count.

reply to post by angie21837


Having personally used one of those meds in the distant past my only advice is to discontinue all use of prescription brain meds - they are likely causing you more harm than they will ever do good. Best of luck Angie.

Originally posted by jasonl1983
reply to post by angie21837

 

Having personally used one of those meds in the distant past my only advice is to discontinue all use of prescription brain meds - they are likely causing you more harm than they will ever do good. Best of luck Angie.

Should you decide to do this, be sure your doctor knows. Many mess need to be titrated down, you can cause a lot of harm by just stopping.

reply to post by smyleegrl


Don't I know it, I stopped essentially cold turkey (the only way I ever quit anything) and had some hallucinations and all around feelings of unease with feelings of cranial pressure. I wouldn't advise others to do this, but again it's the only method I use personally.

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Angie21837, welcome to ATS enjoy you time here.

NAMASTE*******

Oh I see what the 20 post thing meant, now. Sorry. I was a little distracted when writing from reading stuff and my computer's connection has been driving me insane today. So I'm sorry I didn't understand what the rules meant.

So Hello!

If my internet connection holds then hopefully I can make some useful comments somewhere to get to 20....

Thanks for the welcome, Ophiuchus! I'm sure I will enjoy this site quite a bit. Loads of info to go through, though.

And as far as the meds, for now I need to be on something or I get destructive and angry. I would love to not be on pharma's so I am looking at starting to take more vitamins and such. I've been looking at Vitamin C, N-Acetyl Cysteine, and Omega's. So hopefully one day I can get rid of the pharma's.

I've been looking at trying to get involved in something meaningful because I'm basically stuck in this Bipolar - Depression loop and it just really needs to stop.

I would attribute all the feelings I get in my original post to the 'psychosis' I guess I have as a Bipolar, but the feelings just run much deeper than anything I've had from this bipolar thing. I don't know if you all have the same thing, but when something startles me I get this tingling feeling in my body and when I start thinking about this (not pushing it down) that tingling comes up. I start feel like I have to cry (and I just don't do that).. I guess it feels like the night before giving a speech or something. Uneasy and tingly and dread... overwhelming.

So yeah, I guess I wanted to say sorry again for apparently not following the 20 comment thing. I wasn't thinking very clearly when I first wrote and read the rules.

Welcome to ATS...enjoy your time here.

Des

reply to post by angie21837


You are welcome my friend As for the bipolar 1 has observed various levels in different individuals and the meds do seem to be better approach for some who may be experiencing higher levels of bipolar issues. Others however may be being prescribed same or similar meds and may be stronger then evaluated by their doctors and they may require something as simple as peer interactions to get their bodies to produce Neuro chems that the meds may otherwise be forced to release. So 1 is careful with my advice to you but if you feel strong enough to follow the other medical practices to better assist your health 1 recommends you keep your doctors updated on your progress on how much less meds you take and how your over all weeks are going. Good luck and be safe

LOVE LIGHT ETERNIA*******

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Thanks for the welcome. I understand a rapport needs to be built. Sensitive and controversial subjects abound.

I actually just saw that there are more forums here than I had realized! AND there is a section on Ancient Aliens - right up my alley!!! The only problem is I tend to spend too much time reading and lose track of time. Might as well educate myself, at least.

Thanks everyone for the welcomes. Again, very sorry for not following protocol. Got overwhelmed.

~"Chastity: I know you can be overwhelmed, and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed?
Bianca: I think you can in Europe."~
Lame, I know....

Originally posted by angie21837
reply to post by caladonea

 

~"Chastity: I know you can be overwhelmed, and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed?
Bianca: I think you can in Europe."~

Lame, I know....

I like your joke!...

I am a big fan of corny jokes...they are endearing.

I am also glad that there are a lot of topics to interest you. I do a lot of reading on here too.

Subconsciously you probably chose the butterfly as it represents rebirth....from caterpillar to chrysalis to butterfly.

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