Originally posted by NotAnAspie
fair to who? me?
It's not really me here you have to be fair to, is it? You also should be fair to yourself.
If you tell people things, don't you want them to listen and understand?
I'm just trying to get a bead on what's going on here.
Maybe I'll read over everything again and understand it better, but it seemed you had something you were wanting to say beyond what you've said.
That's why I suggested it was an analogy because I wasn't sure if you meant it literally.
I see things in people to. Some people do not feel the need to keep their inner demons fully hosed down and the smoke starts to rise. Anybody could
let themselves be taken by the devil if they let him. I have felt a lot of hate rise up in me, to the point of it scaring me because I knew it was not
good. Stuff like that a person has to keep hosed down and understanding is the key... but sometimes people need more awareness of why these things
rise up in them and they should stay away from other sources of it if they are reacting. I tend to be very selective of who I talk to in real life,
not because i automatically see things in people... but people will hurt you. Even people you know will hurt you in some of the most insidious ways...
on purpose. They'll target another who they claim to love for fear of evil inside that person "to protect them from themselves".... but it's the
devil in themselves telling them to do it.
I do not see it with my eyes. i see it in their words and actions... how they are geared. You can usually look at a machine and tell it's purpose...
if not, watch it run and see it's functions. people are the same "what are they trying to do" is important. Motive is key in figuring stuff out.
Peoples motives can be in their essence... just like a cat crouching, you know he intends to jump. motives and intent comes off people like radio
waves.... regardless of what their mouths are saying. The better they try to make it sound, the more devious the person is.... Is what sounds so good
genuine...or is it some kind of script...because acting is often obvious, but eve if the acting is good, motives and intent coming off that person
should line up and a lot of times they just don't.... and that person has something up their sleeve.
Well, what if they just want to help?
they'd say that instead of doing weird things.
Sometimes saying they are trying to help can be translated to egotism, control or just a flat out lie... it doesn't matter, somethings still screwy
about how they do stuff and they WILL cause problems.
motive and function. Is it doing what it claims to do... or is it wearing that disguise?
there's gotta be a good reason for disguise, but most of the time it's a bad one.
I am going to give you some advice if that is okay with you, I am responsible for this advice as much as I am in the care of my own children
throughout the day and night. I do not consider you a child but I do not know your background or history or your own personal story. I only reach out
because you seem to need something, and I hope I help and not hinder.
What I said was true for me, literally. That happened.
It's funny how things happen to you or thoughts arise or people say something or tv or movies or internet, or an event occurs and you go, 'no
freakin way!' that's not possible, I was thinking the same thing?!
Was it for me?! Because of me?!
Don't be absurd!
I am not worthy/oh my god it's my fault.....don't listen to me, my vioce is so small and insignificant, I am no body.
sound familiar?
Be calm, ride it out, and think, have faith in your heart, balanced by your mind. if they do not sing and dance together with your body, it is not
right. That is a metaphore, but the feeling is just the same as if all three were on the same page and doin' a jig, you feel full.
I understand you only want to understand. I get that, I'm still there too, trying to understand.
I understand your comment about emotions, and tapping something nasty, and we all have that within ourselves, it's choosing the moments to unleash
that counts.
The things on the outside have to follow laws (mans laws, natural laws etc), but what laws do the things on the inside have to follow?
i don't know the answer to that....
you are not crazy, unless of course you give in to those horrible visions/urges/promptings you know are NOT right in your heart.
There is a time and a place for weakness and strength.
If my post has made you think without killing anything, then my job is done