posted on Dec, 7 2012 @ 09:40 PM
So i have spent so much time meditating over the past few years i can't even begin to describe. I have done every sort of meditation you can think
of, everything. I have had some seriously potent experiences, a lot of things i have written about on ATS, but for some reason i have stopped
recently, about a year ago and I don't really know why.
I have become less creative.
I have lost my intellectual edge in certain regards.
I have become "tired", not physically but spiritually.
I have even lost my competitive edge as an athlete.
I just don't know whats going on. Ever since i have opened my eyes things just aren't the same anymore. I have a hard time getting along with people
who live in the dream still. It's not easy. It can be crushing to my self image and as determined as i am, sometimes i want to give up. Watching the
world around me and how people interact and treat each other i just don't get it sometimes.
/ end rant