reply to post by Greatest I am
I do understand where you are coming from though.
But I sincerely think you have a misconstrued conception of what God truly is.
You think God is exactly what most Christians think God is....this 'being' that overlooks all of our actions...that condemns us...sends us to
hell...judges us...kills people...
Chances are you were taught about a vengeful God. A God we should fear. A God that smites people. A God that hates gays.
You are correct to disbelieve this version of God. But that doesn't mean that that is the only way to intellectualize the concept of God.
I was very much in the same boat of you for most of my life. Up until just a few years ago I was very angry at God. I mean, shoot, I prayed to God
every night when I was a little kid for God to save my grandpa during his heart disease, and yet God still killed my grandpa! How could God do this to
me? How could he let my friends suffer? How can God let my 13 year old friend die of cancer while we were in 8th grade? How could there still be wars?
How could God let this happen???
So I thought about all of that for a long time. I refused to accept Christianity (what I had been raised as.) I refused to accept any religion. But I
still wanted to understand, so I kept searching.
I have read all kinds of texts. Some religious, some scientific, some spiritual. Hindu. Buddhist. Christian. Pagan. Egyptian. Mayan. Taoist.
Existentialist. Atheist. Quantum Physics. New Age. Whatever.
It doesn't really seem to matter where the person is coming from, or when they even existed...it seems pretty universal that all human beings want is
to love and be loved.
To me: God is a vibrational energy that permeates every single space within the Universe. This physical Universe is merely one dimension of God,
experienced within the three dimensionality of space and time. All physical reality is made up of vibrations, which are made of light. It even emits
it's own frequency (Om.) These vibrations exist also beyond the physical realm, but it is only within this realm that the vibrations are slowed down
enough to take physical form. To become 'matter." Our thoughts are made of the same energy, the same vibration. Thus, our thoughts are our 'manifest
machines.' Our vibrational thoughts commingle with the vibrations of the universe. Since the universe is a sentient life form of its own, it reacts to
our thoughts. (This is 'prayer.' Every thought is a prayer. That is why we must be careful what energy we produce.) There are other 'being's that
exist beyond our physical realm, as well. Some call them angels. Some call them demons. Some call them aliens. They exist in a realm that we exist in
as well, we have just temporarily (yet voluntarily) chosen to forgo from remembering that aspect of ourselves as we reside within these human bodies.
Our human vessels. We have chosen to come into this existence in order to learn lessons. These lessons include, but are not limited to: compassion,
empathy, love, sacrifice, charity, hope, faith, and personal power. Many times, 'unfortunately', these lessons come at a great price. We must suffer.
We must feel pain. We must feel loneliness and regret and anger and heartbreak. We must witness war and violence and separation. We must experience
these feelings, for how else would we know what we truly need, want, desire? (i.e. Love)
Imagine God as a mountain. Now, a mountain is not just one rock, one stone. It is made of many stones, everything from tiny pebbles to enormous
boulders. But each are equally as significant as the rest when it comes to seeing the Mountain. Sometimes we could zoom so close to one little pebble,
or one little rocky area, that we even forget that we are still on the mountain. We may even forget or deny the mountain exists. And, as one pebble
may say, "There is no mountain! I've never seen a mountain, thus how can it exist?" Yet, it would take backing up, possibly miles and miles, in order
to see the entire mountain. The grand picture. And, regardless of the fact that the pebble does not believe in the mountain...he is still a part of
the mountain.
Yet, sometimes we must feel the sense of isolation, of separation...of loneliness, despair, regret. We must experience this so we can consciously
choose to raise ourselves higher. To be brighter. To get closer back to the source. To re-membering who we are. To choose Love. And then pass on what
we have learned to others, to help give them hope as they go through their own lessons, their own experience.
"Everything perfect in the universe, even your desire to improve it."
-Dr. Wayne Dyer
Good luck on your path.
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