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Originally posted by zippy1958
I just moved back to town after living way out in the country for almost 12 years. I lived in the place of my dreams, I thought. Wide open country with beautiful sunsets and sunrises. Horses, cattle, deer, mountains....just a beautiful place. I swore it was the last place I would live and my family would have to drag me out kicking and screaming. I was wrong. I cannot believe I am saying this, but I am happier in town. I was afraid to leave the country, esp. before 2012. I was a prepper. Here it is, right on top of us, and I don't care about those things anymore. I am not afraid. I cannot believe it.
About 5 years ago, I had a spiritual awakening. I know it for a fact. Synchronicities happened daily. I was so damn happy, probably for the first time in my life. All my problems were so minor. Nothing bothered me. And then the bottom fell out and I entered what I can only describe as the dark night of the soul. My whole damn character changed. I became deceptive, greedy,. dishonest. I feel like I have been in hell. I went from the highest high to the lowest low. I feel like scum. And I have not been able to dig myself out. I just don't get it.
I am ready for this to be over, but if character means anything at this point, I am screwed.
Originally posted by fourthmeal
I'd like to share a very vivid experience that occurred last night.
I went to bed relatively early, and my goal was to have some laydown meditation time before I drifted to sleep. After I got myself centered and relaxed, I decided it was time to go through repressed thoughts and let them go. Mostly I decided to start forgiving people that have wronged me in the past. I named a few by name, stated that I forgive for (insert reason I was mad) and stated that I love them.
After going through a few memorable people, I realized that I wasn't able to remember any more names from the past (I'm 32 now, most of this bad stuff happened more than a decade ago), so I decided to make an ALL statement, in my mind, that everyone is forgiven, and loved. In addition to this I thanked them all for the lessons they allowed me to learn through the experience, good and bad.
Then I stated to myself that I hereby let go of all the resentment, etc related to these events, and I visualized pushing it all downstream from my thoughts and let it float away until it was beyond my vision. A simple thing, certainly nothing more than a little visualization therapy.
After this release I decided to let my mind focus on opening my heart Chakra. Again just a bit of visualizing, providing the intent to feel more from this Chakra and to radiate light and be more directly connected to it.
After this I let my mind wander a bit and just let things come, and I accepted them as they are and for what they are as they came, and let go of the negative thoughts that came, and integrated the positive thoughts. Soon, I drifted to a peaceful sleep.
Enough setup, on to the experience!
In the middle of the night I woke up 3 times. Twice, it was for no apparent reason. The third it was because my toddler son was crying a bit. But in each of these three times, I woke up with an energy in my body from my hands to my feet, like everything was buzzing with something powerful. My whole body and mostly the heart felt deep unconditional love permeating everything, I was in total bliss. I was half-awake, half-asleep in this bliss and let me tell you, it was some of the best feeling I've had in my whole life.
That third time required me to get up for my son, and when I got up I was almost butterfly-light and that buzzing sensation went on for a bit, while I crept to his room. I picked him up, changed him, got him a drink, the usual, but with such an intense peace and "groundedness" it astonished me. I am by all counts, not a very patient and kind person when woke up in the middle of the night. Typically when I have to get up in the middle of the night for him (happens like one out of ten nights so nothing horrible), I'm in a pretty bitchy mood and all that goes with that energy, if you get my drift. This time I literally felt like a completely different person, the person that I WANTED to be for a long time.
Folks, I believe something is happening if you just let it in your hearts and let it come to you. I encourage all seekers to use this time to let go of things, let them pass through you, and let this energy come to you. I've had plenty of "party" experiences in my life, ones that I won't go into depth due to ATS rules about illicit substances. The general gist of what I'm saying is that the feelings these artificial things gave me pale in comparison to what I felt last night.
If that's what we have to look forward to as we Ascend, then let me be the first to say, BRING IT ON! A moment of bliss like that within each human all at the same time would change the world in a moment.
This thread has inspired me to make a documentary film about the "Final Countdown"
We're leaving together
But still it's farewell
And maybe we'll come back,
To earth, who can tell?
I guess there is no one to blame
We're leaving ground (leaving ground)
Will things ever be the same again?
It's the final countdown.