posted on Dec, 4 2012 @ 10:24 PM
Hi, Austrailiana. I'm very sorry for your loss. You did everything you could and I hope you are at peace with that. I haven't posted on ATS for a
few months but your thread pulled some heart strings and I had to share my stories with you. I don't just believe pets (dogs and cats in my case)
have an afterlife, I know - at least for myself. Let me just relay what I've experienced so hopefully it will give you hope and end the anguish.
I had to leave my cat behind in Maryland when I moved to Colorado. I visited there first and tried my best to find a place that would allow cats. I
just couldn't. I knew I could leave Leo with my landlord and his 11 year old daughter. She loved him and there was no doubt he would be well taken
care of. So he stayed there. I accepted this and moved on with my life. I did not pine away daily from missing him because you just naturally move
on. You cry and get sad at the beginning and then go forward with other things in your life.
One night, a few months after being in Colorado, I had just turned the light off and got comfortable for bed. Yes, I was still awake. All of a
sudden, I had an overwhelming feeling of having Leo right inside my chest - right around my heart This lasted for what I guess was about 5 to 10
minutes and then it faded. It kept me awake thinking about him and trying to feel him again. No doubt he was with me. About a week later, I got a
call from my old landlord who said Leo had dissappeared about a week ago and had not returned (and he never did). It was so unusual for him not to
come home they figured he had died. He was still recovering somewhat from being hit by a car a few months before I left and actually had some bone
damage that was almost impossible to repair. So as far as I was and still am concerned, Leo is alive and well, just not on this side.
Another: My husband and I had to put his 13 year old cat down a couple years ago due to a tumor in his mouth. And my husband, being somewhat of a
clairvoyant also, actually saw the cat a few times in the bedroom very clearly and still feels him occasionally rubbing around his legs. You know
when your cat is doing that and it happens. And the night we had to put him down, I distinctly felt his paws walking across my pillow on more than
one occasion and a few nights afterward. I still do now and then and wonder if it might also be my two cats that dissappeared in the mountains many
years ago. And one of those cats I felt came to me as well. I felt her close as I did with Leo - more than just wondering where she was.
A couple years ago, we had to put our dog Buddy down because it had pemphigus and there was no hope in his case. He couldn't walk because the pads
of his feet deteriorated to where it was too painful to walk. I held him and gazed into his eyes as the contents of the needle went through his body.
I told him to go run and said I love you over and over looking into his eyes all the while until they didn't look back. The vet and his staff put
his body (bagged up) in the back seat. After I closed the door I heard what could only be the sound of a tail beating against the seat. We all know
that sound. The next day, my daughter called me and said she was in her bedroom that day before and heard a dog's tail beating against the wall. We
all know that noise too. She said it was unmistakable and absolutely couldn't have been caused by anything else. But the biggest and BEST thing is
for you is what happened when my husband came home that day after the vet put him down. My husband got out of the car and was walking up the hill to
our house. He looked up and there was Buddy shaking back and forth with joy and tail wagging hard all in the excitement to see that 'Dad's' home.
In a blink of his eye Buddy dissappeared. My husband entered the room where I was with tears in his eyes crying, "I just saw Buddy." We cried
together. Sometimes in the house I see their forms for the briefest of seconds. Maybe it's a trick of my brain or eyes but I think they're here.
Now and then I acknowledge them just in case they are so they know I haven't forgotten them.
I think that some may wait for us as friends and relatives do. Some may cross over into their own place. But I firmly believe that we will see them
again. I already know they're on the other side trying to make contact with us. Why would we not see them again?
So don't despair anymore. Let your thoughts of your dog be only memories of the fun and loving times you had together and your grieving turn into
thankfulness that you had such a wonderful friend. Know that you will see them again - there's just too many accounts out there similiar to mine.
Find a new dog to love though you won't love the one you loss anyless. But there is a dog out there in this here and now somewhere that is waiting
for YOU - NOW. Go find him! You'll all be together again. It all ends in love if you aim for that.