posted on Dec, 3 2012 @ 11:56 AM
My mother passed away on May 29, 2011 of liver failure from alcoholism.
She was in the hospital for exactly 40 days, with a tracheotomy in her throat and hooked up to so many machines.
The last week she was in the hospital I couldn't go see her, because it was making me physically ill seeing her like that.
Here's a poem I wrote on her year anniversary death date.
"The wind wails with cries from it's heart
The sky goes dark
So does my very soul tonight
Ripples of darkness invade every corner
Don't want to see
Don't want to be anymore"
Little dark, but that's how I was feeling. I loved her so much, and the alcohol took control of her life.
Alcohol has a hold on my father as well. This deeply saddens me, but there is nothing I can do. I'm grown and married with one child. My little
sister who was 10 when my mom passed, lives with my dad and new wife.
I'm having a hard time with her death, because I don't know how to cry without feeling weak.
Growing up, my mom said crying was a weakness and my dad agreed. So I usually cry in private,and when I do start crying, I end up stopping myself. I
know I need to just let it all go and cry, but I'm scared I will fall apart.