posted on Dec, 1 2012 @ 09:39 AM
Originally posted by SyntheticPerception
If you do not mind me asking around what age did you experience your psychosis? I got out of the hospital the day before my 30th birthday.
I was 28 at the time I first "popped" around Christmas time, and the thing that initially set me off, was my intense absorption or "grokking" (to
borrow a word from Heinlein's "A Stranger in a Strange Land") of two books, one called "The Road Less Traveled, A New Psychology of Love,
Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth" by M. Scott Peck, MD and a popular science book on the new physics called "The Dancing Wu Li Masters" by
Gary Zukav. Something in me just broke and I cried and cried at a recognition, yes, that I was loved by God, and instead of accepting it, my ego
latched on and I wanted instead to be extra special and powerful, and for a short time, while skiing with some friends, I was, I had the power and
went around trying to secretly bless everyone and bestow grace upon them, but what goes up eventually comes back down again, and the higher one goes
the harder the fall can be when it happens. Like I said, I got passive aggressive with God who was forced to pull away while building a catch net to
catch me (he never abandons or forsakes us). I'm now 45 and this same kind of thing has happened to me about 4 times, but not anymore, not because
I'm resisting anything but because of the work I've done to integrate my experiences.