posted on Nov, 28 2012 @ 10:05 PM
Well let me see, my mother is pacing the house agitated because of her pain pills for her cancer , she can't get the rest she needs. My older brother
is starting to go blind from Multiple Sclerosis, dad has a giant lump the size of a raised quarter on his wrist due to him picking at his skin. My
younger brother has a lump in his back from working too much....I'm sorry, this is hard for me to grasp anymore.
The other half of my family keeps saying "pray to our oh Merciful God"..I might offend a few people but I'm praying "oh Merciless God please
don't look upon thee and smite me.
I just don't get it, my family is literally falling apart, we are pretty much using "borrowed" internet, but on the bright side I did ask our
neighbor first, she didn't mind so I am thankful for that.
The power bill is over due, the rented washing machine is getting taken by Sunday, the Gas bill is overdue, ramen noodles have become dear friends and
to top things off I stepped out of the car and got a shoe full off water.
What in the name of whatever did I do to have my whole life thrown into this state of disarray?
My dad told me he has been thinking of doing Illegal things to make money for the house..I told him if he does I am leaving and taking the power bill
I know desperation can make people do dumb things but I can't protect this whole family, if I believed in curses I would swear we are cursed
Sorry it is just beginning to really wear me down, and everyone says be strong, we are one step away from losing our home, one step away from no food,
and one step away from no gas or power..and at this time I learned mom does not have any money for burial arrangements if the worse does happen.
What happens in situations like this? do they just burn the body? do they hold it somewhere? so much on my mind and all you guys get to deal with me,
I am sorry, thank you for allowing me to vent yet again.