posted on Nov, 24 2012 @ 12:31 AM
My friend, this is trippy.
I had a bit of a breakdown a couple of months back. I realized I wasn't who I wanted to be....who the f**k is this angry pr*ck yelling at everyone
in the world over the most insignifciant 'issues'.
I decided to try to stop being angry at every little iota of life...started counting how many times I got angry at cars and people in general on the
way to work (1 hr commute). I was almost to 30 by lunch.... W.T.F?
I used to talk about how everyone, even the most evil wicked harded criminal, has some level of goodness in their souls, even if well hidden.
Suddenly I hate everyone? what happened to me?
I stopped getting mad at every tiny event. And, I'll say coincidentally because it would be bizarre if not, more things started testing my patience.
I wouldn't get 1 car driving 35mph in a 55 on the way to work. If I passed that guy, I'd have another one pull out a minute later cutting me off
and going slow.
So now I (do my best to) ignore it...I never pass anyone, I will let anyone out into an intersection if I can. I will do whatever I can to try to not
cause unwarranted agitation to anyone in my life or who passed by in a flit of time through it. And, boy, things get crazy. I will still have to
say coincidental for lack of wanting to go nuts...but it seems like Murphy got a Doctorate at the University of Rube Goldberg in the way events unfold
to cause dumb little nuissances more than ever...but it's fun.
I laugh if I slam my hand, I back off of cars to ensure they don't think I want to pass, I nod and small smile to as many people as I can....even tho
most of them aren't looking.
One tiny example before my TL,DR post is closed:
I decided to drive to Staten Island the Friday after Sandy. It was late (around 8) and my wife thought I was nuts (I know I'm nuts). Stopped at a
local Harbor Freight and picked up about $500 in blankets and stuffed my little car. They were thrilled to have them. (this was the back
On my way home, it was like 2:30 in the morning....there was NOBODY on the roads. Suddenly, there's a car about 50yds back. As soon as he gets
behind me...his brights go on. I start getting annoyed. Then more annoyed, Then pissed... then thinking about locking up the brakes, throwing #
out the window, getting behind him...... But I caught myself. I said, "does this matter in my life?". So I drove on w/ my head slightly more to
the right than normal to avoid direct glare.
About 2 minutes later.... A rig comes flying up behind the guy, gets in the left lane, passes him, and lodges himself between us.
I just looked back and said, "Thank You" and went home to my family