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Originally posted by MichiganSwampBuck
I've had a problem with the holidays for many years now. The basic reason is not having the money to make it a good holiday for myself and my loved ones. I used to feel huge guilt having to choose between paying my bills through out the winter or providing holiday gifts and outings. The guilt and frustration about not being able to get ahead enough to have a good holiday season leads to depression, resentment, self loathing and anger.
The best way for me to deal with the holidays is to stop caring about them. I have to stop caring that I have no money now or in the future. Sure there is always tomorrow, just not a "real" future. So I'll struggle on for maybe another 20 years and then it will probably be some stranger's problem what to do with my lifeless body. The most I can hope for my future is that I don't have much in the way of personal property left for anyone to have to deal with it when I die.
Sound depressing? I call this being realistic. Happy Holidays everyone.
Originally posted by Sissel
reply to post by Hefficide
Would it be okay for me to recommend that people who might have an issue, keep a phone number handy for a hotline if they think the holiday's might get to be too much?
I know that hotlines have helped me on some of these days, when I felt like there was nobody else in the world who could understand this!
If you're wondering how in the world I got tagged with the diagnosis, given the above. The answer is simple. I have a bit of an issue with authority and a bad habit of dealing with that authority angst in an aggressive manner. IE if my boss yells at me, I tend to punch him. Thus my shrink tacked "social anxiety" in and then gave me an infinitely confusing explanation as to why.