reply to post by Hefficide
Well Heff .. the truth is our world, our culture, our surroundings, everyting has changed to the point that humanity has very little value. People
generally value materialism, fashion, money, wealth, and superficial things. Our society has degraded itself to such a level, that caring,
understanding each other, and showing compassion are extremely hard to find. This in turn breeds lonliness and depression, the disconnect we feel even
in a room full of loved ones. Because our normal year round life is full of superficial people, we have to deal with this misery year round, until one
day, a holiday comes along with all the loving things and people you can imagine, but deep inside you know this is 'temporary,' perhaps it even
seems like an 'illusion,' and tomorrow you will have to get back to the world as it really is. This becomes hard coded in you, and its hard to fight
that feeling and snap out of it.
There are places in the world where you will still find this precious humanity, usually in poor countries, and in poor communities of our own
countries, where family and simpicity of life, love above all is cherished, people actually help each other and take care of everyone. You do not have
to worry about how your children will eat, because all kids are taken care of by everyone, the community is one big family. I hope I'm articulating
myself proplerly, because I'm generally not a good writer. You're right about things changing instantly from liking to disliking the holidays.
After you go through a traumatic experience in life, your perception of reality gets altered, and you wake up to a new reality - the real reality.
This is why the happiest people today are care free, dumb, ignorant, stupid people. They have no care in the world, not about themselves, or others,
no responsibility, just eat and 'exist' till they die. The ones who are awake, like you, me, and 90% of the world, find themselves in a dilema
because we see the world for what it really has become. We find it extremely hard to reconcile these differences with our belief structures of how
things really ought to be.
You're not alone, believe me, and you're certainly not crazy to feel that way, infact you are very much wide awake. Circumstances which you can not
change have spiraled you into feeling the way you do. They say a sane person in a crazy world will be considered to be crazy. Thats us.
I hate the holidays too, because of my personal issues that have boxed me into lonliness also. I brought myself out of this box though, by meditation,
deep meditation, and the realization that I am actually thinking correctly in a crazy world. I'm a lot better than I was 6 years ago, when I had my
'sudden' change or wake-up call if you will. Now I am able to balance my life and get back on track confidently simply by change of thought through
positive meditation. I do not allow negativity to enter my energy field.
I know one day you will definitely improve, because the human mind is amazing, and always strives to center itself with what is right. Your level of
thought, compassion for the needy, and way you think, all tell me that you have a kind, generous, and well centered spirit. Don't let any of these
psychologist quaks tell you that you have this or that 'syndrome.' You have nothing, you are normal, and you will accept that one day and happiness
will come out from within. Stay away from any prescription drugs, and let your mind heal naturally through meditation, center yourself because you
can, and you will.
Wish you happy holidays too! Eat a lot, drink a lot, laugh a lot, hug your loved ones every chance you get, and tell them how much you love them.
Share the wealth ..which you are already doing..cheers