posted on Nov, 29 2012 @ 02:44 PM
Part 1
I have read the Bible several times. It is beautiful. It is amazing. It is ugly. It is full of contradictions. It has been misinterpreted and used for
convenience on many levels. I will answer you with what I believe, because it's not up to me to answer for every Christian because we are all
different inside and our perceptions are different. There are genius Christians. There are stupid Christians. There are good and evil Christians.
It's just like any other group in society whether a committee, city, or family. This might get a little long, because mixed in with my beliefs are
how I came to them. I am not a preacher. To my small religious town I am a sinful, backsliding heathen and I am willing to admit it. I spent years
bouncing from different religions to atheism and to what I believe now. I was even once the main writer of the atheism section of a very popular and
large website.
To begin to understand Christianity you have to understand Jesus and his revolution or revelation. The Jews were under the laws. They were told by
their religious leaders to follow these laws exactly or they were under condemnation from God. Jesus said it was not the truth, that He was the way
and the truth and their teachers/leaders did not really know God. He taught this in so many ways, "it is not what goes into a man that makes him
unclean but what comes out of him because this shows what is inside his heart" which goes along with "they shall be known by their fruits" Now our
fruits are our end results. Our end results are sort of like the blind man touching the elephant thing. We see a little piece.
Say I am filled with anger and hate towards my child and abuse them. The beginning of my fruit is to turn my child away from love. This spreads out
like a ripple.I have caused damage and brought darkness into the world. It doesn't matter if I follow every religious doctrine, dogma, or law man has
come up with. I had an "evil" heart and it manifested (came to fruit) on Earth. IT doesn't matter what I thought my heart was full of either.
Everyone thinks they are right at the time, but that doesn't mean they are. And that is where we have grace come into the picture as a part of
salvation. We can't get it right on our own. We can make laws until people are barely able to move without it being illegal, but the human heart is
what it is and the law won't change that. In the big scheme of things we don't always know when we're wrong or right. We've tried to create utopia
for ourselves over and over and we can't. Democracy, dictatorships, capitalism, socialism, communism: they were all supposed to be the big answer to
our problems on earth. Then there are the religions we tried to change and perfect people that have caused more harm than good. All of our systems
have been flawed because we are flawed. So the Bible says and so we can obviously see in the world. This is why I believe the Bible over witchcraft
(Wicca). We cannot "do as ye will and it harm none" because we do not see the ripple of our actions only what is right in front of us.
"For by the measure with which you judge, you too shall be judged". We can't judge who someone else is to God. We can judge a momentary action as
right or wrong, but not the entirety of that person. We have to be humble and keep a forgiving attitude. We have no idea what caused them to sin.
Next, we are not perfect either and don't know what harm we may have caused in the world. Finally we have no idea where they are heading in life or
after. If we condemn someone in our mind we must condemn ourselves because we have all sinned. Sin begins in the heart, not the action Jesus taught,
which is why I believe the Bible over the Koran. I know action begins with thought. We all have thoughts of doing wrong so cannot cast stones. We are
all weak in different ways.
I was molested as a child. Why? No idea. But I know sin begets sin. I felt destroyed. I slept around, did drugs, drank,stole. In my late teens I had
an abortion so yes, murder. With psychology I could sure explain everything I have done in life, but so could my molester. Feeling justified is not
being justified. Having a good reason doesn't undo the damage.
I could say that person destroyed me. But am I destroyed? Is another person responsible for my bad decisions? No. I knew what I was doing was wrong. I
excused and justified myself. I was angry,scared and willful. Everyone is. But no matter how much we think we are destroyed, we're not. Inside of us
is an incredible strength and beauty that we can tap into, but often don't. It can't be destroyed. We don't touch it often because we are so busy
with the outer world. "Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven" "It is among you" or "within you" This why I am not an atheist. I should be
destroyed according to modern scientific thought. I received no love as a child. I was unwanted, beaten, molested, raped, raised by a pedo and an
alcoholic.Neither genes nor environment worked in my favour.