I talked with the other surgeon today since my dr/surgeon wasn't in. They work closely together. She gave me the good news, then the bad and then the
Good is that I'm healing fine, (sorry for any tmi coming up but it IS medical), that I definitely do have to get my uterus, cervix and one ovary
removed asap. Keeping the other ovary means I will NOT go through menopause early. Also, the cancer scare was negative.
The bad is that the endo has my uterus so compacted that it's rock solid and will not move. It is also deeply deeply adheised .... can't spell it.
basically my uterus is deeply deeply glued to my colon. They will have to peel off layers to unglue the two.
worst news is that due to having to DO that, there is a 98% probability of them cutting my colon. IF they see the cut, they can call in the other
surgeons to fix it. If it's a tiny cut and they miss it, I can't put this any other way but straight up: I will not come out of this alive. I'll be
kept in the hospital for up to two days to keep an eye open for it, so hopefully that will stop this, but she was straight up with me, the chances of
me not making it are at about 75% but I HAVE to get this taken out. I have no choice.
I wish I had better news to give.
Part of me wants to run, avoid surgery, live with the pain and LIVE.
On talking with a dr friend once coming home today about that though, he said to get the surgery. if my uterus et al is as bad as they're saying, if
i hold off, it will deteriorate worse and i WILL ultimately die as it very well could 'eat up' my colon.
This was NOT news I was wanting to get by any means. Not by my surgeon, nor by my dr friend.
I think I'll be putting off my past life readings on here for a while. I have too much on my plate right now to focus on those. I really can't do
those right now. I'm positively scared.