It got so bad that while it was happening to me I saw a doctor and got medicine prescribed . But since I don't see her anymore I am left with a question , do I stop takin the medication so I can see her again or do I move on with my life?
I know it's just my subconscious playing games with me (or something supernatural) and I don't really have anything else in my life going for me. So
do I send myself to sleep and take the blue pill or do I stay awake in the real world and take the red pill?
I quoted Silent Hill 2 because that was sorta an inside joke after awhile when I would see her. In the game James gets a letter from his dead wife
asking him to come to Silent Hill, but she has been dead for three years. He goes and discovers the town there is something wrong with it it's
deserted and full of hell monsters. He also discovers this town is a place where hell envelopes a town. And he was brought here to be punished. He
remembers that he killed his wife after she was dying of a disease like cancer that took its toll on both of them. There is all this crazy symbolism
throughout the game, like a baby carriage in an empty pool with a serpent coin inside and this graveyard with his tombstone in an empty grave you have
to jump through as your falling through all these holes when you get to a prison that's beneath a lake. The game has three endings and two extra
ones. One of him he commits suicide, one he leaves with the kid she was going to adopt and one he leaves with the evil twin of his wife. One of the
extra endings is he gathers artifacts found in the town to perform a ceremony to bring her back to life and one joke ending.
So do I take the blue pill and retreat on this twisted romance or do I take the red pill and come back to the real world?