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Originally posted by digitalbluco
Sorry for your loss, as I have lost quite a few people the past few years myself.
(not a proper place, just some rambling below, choose to read or not)
Sometimes seeing things too clearly can be so overwhelming that the thought processes of others seem quite meaningless, it's as if you are without feeling/emotions, but not in a sad way. It's hard to explain, but this is what I've found to be the closest.
Depressive realism is the proposition that people with depression actually have a more accurate perception of reality, specifically that they are less affected by positive illusions of illusory superiority, the locus of control and optimism bias. The concept refers to people with borderline or moderate depression.
en.wikipedia.org...
That is quite interesting, but I think people with depression that see things too clearly actually feel things more deeply. Well, for me anyway. I'm on a med for anxiety but not mild depression as I have had problems with side affects.
Originally posted by Expat888
sincere condolences on the passing of your friend.... always hard outliving the people around us .... the physical body is gone but their spirit is always with us... they live on in our hearts and memories...
Originally posted by andy06shake
My best friend of 33 years committed suicide on the 7th of March this year. He allways seemed to be really happy and the life and soul of the party. My sincere condolences to you!
IMHO its the world we live in today that causes so many poor people to end it.edit on 14-11-2012 by andy06shake because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by Kapablanka
From the Hagakure, regarding giri, page 95
Lord Naoshige once said, “There is nothing felt quite so deeply as giri. There are times when someone like a cousin dies and it is not a matter of shedding tears. But we may hear of someone who lived fifty or a hundred years ago, of whom we know nothing and who has no family ties with us whatsoever, and yet from a sense of giri shed tears.”
Today would be one of those times.
Originally posted by Vespa51
reply to post by Night Star
I commiserate with you.....such a shock. My friend, mother of two small children, did the same thing. No warning beforehand. You keep wondering if you could have done something to help.
Originally posted by chasingbrahman
I'm so terribly sorry for your - and the world's - loss. How lucky each of you were to enrich each others' lives while penpals. We all quietly grieve in our own way when learning someone chose to leave this world on their own terms. It's an odd mix of deep sadness and hope that the one we've lost has found respite.
Originally posted by Thunder heart woman
reply to post by Night Star
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend.
Originally posted by wrkn4livn
reply to post by LoneCloudHopper2
I wonder about these types of therapies. are we treating the symptom or the person. Is it due to advances in medicine that these types of conditions are being more often discovered or is the change a result of diet? In my day, depression was treated by talking it out, not just popping a pill. with the extreme profits being reaped by drug companies it makes me wonder.
Originally posted by mysterioustranger
reply to post by Night Star
Thanks for the kind words. Should you ever need to vent...U2U.
PS When you think about it....maybe our part in their lives was to survive to tell their stories. .and we are doing that...
Peace
Originally posted by mysterioustranger
reply to post by mysterioustranger
PS Night Star? I am 1/2 Cherokee...and my given name means... "Morning Star". Now THERES a coincidence for you!!
Originally posted by trouble4fun
I am sorry for your loss, now a days so many people feel they have no future, I sometimes find myself questioning my purpose as well. Having children I chose to keep looking for what that is everyday.. .i have faith, I just simply can't reason with the way life has more downs than ups. I absorb all the happy things as much as i can, i try to focus on them when times are really low, but still always end up with feelings of dread and dispair. I have no mental illnesses, just live in this world. Remember your friend by the happy moments you shared.
we all live on through those that loved and knew us
Originally posted by ~widowmaker~
reply to post by Night Star
i believe that our energy and particles that make us up, breaks up into bagillions of pieces and gets used in the creation of something new with a little bit of you in it ^^ i dont believe we come back as ourselves, and even if we did, most wouldnt know it anyways till to late, not like i remember anything from my past life and are learning from mistakes, because ive made a ton of mistakes in life and continue to. well could just be i dont learn from mistakes but i try to hehe ^^
Originally posted by felonius
reply to post by Night Star
Warning.. Be prepared to be PISSED in the near future.
just sayin.
4 years ago, my little brother offed himself when he found out his wife was a serial shagger.
Their son, my nephew, has neurological issues steming from a doctors F'up during birth. He requires a nurse to help during the day. They could easily afford it. We'll, the nurses we're ready to play doctor while my brother was at work during the day.
Long story short, about 4 days to christmas and a day or so after our mothers birthday, he ate a .45 bullet.
I had no idea about what was up. I felt that had I known, I could have done something. If I had "read the signs" and acted. Yeah. I had some guilt issues.
woulda, coulds, shouldas.
Suicide victims (to me) deserve pretty much nothing but ire. Your friend (being he was on meds), made a conscious choice and knew the outcome. In his case, I can give a pass. If your chemistry is fouled, you cant think right and therefore your incapable of "right" thinking.
Dont be surprised though if you get mad as hell about it. Its pretty normal. Above all, dont feed the guilt with the "W, C, S"'s. You'll just get deeper and be more miserable.
Words are pretty weak but they're really all I have from my experience. It sucks. Plain and simple.
Suiciders (as in murderers), rarely consider others. Its reallly rather narcissistic.
Originally posted by TheFriendlyGreek
My thoughts are with you and everyone else close to your friend.
Depression is a living hell. For 15 years (since my late teens) I've dealt with this beast, but I am lucky it hasn't escalated to the point of suicidal thoughts. The most important thing for people who suffer from depression to do is get help and not let it spiral out of control (much harder to do than to write, I assure you).
I truly empathize with those who choose this route because it is thought of as selfish and cowardly. In some cases it is, but the vast majority of victims are so sick that death seems less painful than continuing living. Just think about that for a moment.
Originally posted by openyourmind1262
Nightstar, My next door neighbors 13 yr old son committed suicide June 25th of this year. Right next door, out in the woods behind their house. It really shocked the neighborhood. Had a profound effect on myself. I know you ask for answers. They arent any. At least they arent any that work. I just being a neighbor had to talk to some one.
I contacted my local suicide prevention agency and volunteered some time. I want ever regret that move. It helped me in many ways. Not saying it will help you, but at a time like this it can't hurt. Good luck, OYM1262
Originally posted by badgerprints
I always wish I knew what to say to make things better for someone who's lost a friend.
Nothing ever seems to be the right thing.
If I did know what to say, I'd say it again and again and again.