posted on Nov, 15 2012 @ 12:32 AM
Well today the whole family gathered at the hospital to talk about how much time mom has, mom and dad went in to talk to him first, then dad comes out
and tells us the Dr found a new medicine that he wants to try starting tomorrow.
mom forgot what the medicine is called but I will have more information about all this tomorrow evening, the whole family keeps praising God, I am
having trouble with this in a sense.
I keep thinking, what if this fails? then what? sometimes i feel like everyone blindly puts faith into a giant invisible ghost that demands that we
worship him or else..
My mom always has believed in god, has always tried to protect us, and all this has done for her is to make her go through immense pain, the doctor
did however give her a new type of pain patch, it is called Fentanyl, I hope it helps her pain.
And before anyone says i am bashing God, I'm not..just so many people say "it's the will of God, don't question things..that really sounds like
middle age era thinking.
And yes I am happy they have a new drug to try on mom, this is a great thing, but if it doesn't work this is just setting us up for even more
heartbreak and pain.
Dad cannot handle this, Mom holds her feelings inside because she doesn't want to scare us, I on the other hand just want a little bit of normalcy
Today we made spaghetti and all dad could do is get mad saying we were supposed to boil water first, that is how mom does it, we ARE not her, we have
to do things our way, and yes it turned out fine..even with dad complaining and getting angry