I don't know, I feel like if I'm just closing my eyes, I'm acknowledging that it's happening but if I turn around, I'm still trying to I guess
mentally block the fact that it's happening. Sort of like I do now when I try to just box death out of my life entirely and try to never think about
it if I can help it. If I were to just turn around in that situation, I would be in the same thought pattern and the same course of action. I just
have a feeling that whenever my ticket is finally up that I'll still be denying it until I just drop. I'll be gasping and things will begin to go dark
and I'll just tell myself "You're not dying... You're going to wake right back up... Be right as rain again..."
Very interesting response, actually.
So you are saying that, simply by closing your eyes, you acknowledge that your death is here. I would ask you, then, is the case not the same in
turning around?
Either way, it seems the main differentiation here is that, in turning around, it is almost as if one is trying to maintain a sense of normality
(though given, in a very abnormal situation!); an attempt to maintain control of one's life (via exercising it/ turning around) , despite the obvious
fact that there is no control to be had.
It is indeed disturbing to think about death; what comes after, all that jazz. Inevitably, this topic is almost always followed by questions of god,
existence, etc. ; I'd like to avoid that as much as possible, because sometimes these things just confuse everything even more. I formulated this
problem in an attempt to simplify the question (and that of the answer). We talk about God, and existence, and this and that, as this abstract
concept, this thing that's "Out there", and frame it as something that is universal for all. The simple question of "Would you close your eyes?" cuts
through everything, and strips it down just you, and the train.
That being said, I would encourage you not to be afraid of death, but at the same time, foster that attitude of "right as rain". You never know when
it might save your life

edit on 9-11-2012 by anon4m05 because: Absolutely Poor Grammar