reply to post by Bilky
Thank you for sharing. Many deep thinkers (and individualistic spiritualists) have come close to insanity at one point or another. There is something
grounding and safe about just following what our institutions teach and believing what the churches preach. Going it alone can be very intense. I
remember when I was 15 (when I believe I became a man.) I spent that summer alone in the woods, on a large rock, contemplating life. This was when I
discovered that I didn't believe in God (or at least not in any assumed way,) experienced the eternal moment and really questioned everything I had
presumed up until that point. I started asking tough questions of myself, exploring the depths of my mind. I had a couple of experiences where I felt
pure insanity, not far away. I made it through with my sanity intact, but it was scary for sure. I've heard of a lot of deep thinkers (or lone
spiritualists) who've had similar experiences. In the shamanic journey, not all make it through with their sanity (or even with their lives.) Really
facing things brings serious danger with it, but making it through gives you character.
There is indeed a kind of "edge" one finds when he questions his assumptions, logic, morals and outlooks (everything which gives him/her grounding.)
I've never been able to see auras, but have known some who can. With the black tunnel, I am not sure it is always the same thing though.
In a previous experience, I described being pushed down a black tunnel. This one seemed very different than the one I mention here, as that one was
going down instead of up, and felt like a more personal space (rather than outside the universe.) Also, whereas here I describe how the tunnel removed
my ego self (all I felt was peace,) the tunnel going into my unconscious self allowed me to still think, panic and react with my ego mind. I think it
is this tunnel (going down) where we likely go when we dream, but the one going outside ourselves (and the world (and where the ego is removed) is
where we go when we die. Coming back from the tunnel going within was natural, whereas coming back from the external tunnel was quite traumatic.