posted on Oct, 28 2012 @ 06:33 PM
reply to post by VoidHawk
Short answer: An joyous anxiety compelling me to contribute to the physical and conscious freedom of us all in these changing times
A coming to alms in away with myself. I spent most of my life droning through it trying to ignore what didn't make sense or fit the mold. Happy to
be part of the system as long as I had a sense of security and opportunities to chase Euphoria to make up for the downs. The larger reality kept
knocking at my door however. Luckily I had a few strange experiences that I hid for quite some time as child who's memories were persistent. They
kept me returning to get my fill of paranormal hoping I would find an answer to the long embedded fears they left and pouring through eastern religion
to find a release (however never dedicating to a practice). I lived a very intellectual and physical life but despised religion allowing Buddhism
under the faccad of it being a "philosophy".
I had an indescribable breakdown a couple of years ago that I have finally accepted as spiritual. My entire belief structure shifted within months.
With that came reevaluating the knowledge and experience I had already acquired in a new light. I began meditating for the first time with results
the filled me with so much confidence in my self view, beliefs, and the desire to create that I had to come to the community of like minded people. I
work a cushy engineering job at one of the top 100 corporations in the world yet going has become a chore as I tune into the changing world. I asked
myself how I could help. The only answer I got was that little voice of reasoning in my head say I was to master sound. It was confusing meditative
experience. Music was a passion in my life, however I didn't know how that could help. Slowly the intellectual, spiritual, emotional, physical, and
paranormal experiences I had been afford across my lifespan began to assimilate in my mind as one and bring about intuitive knowledge on the
vibrational nature of our experience. I feel compelled to self mastery of it and to create technology stemming from it. Do to some of the heavy meta
physical and alchemical aspects however I've decided I'd be able to receive some of the most stimulating conversations here and not the water
I don't come here as a know-it-all predictor of the future trying to convince another of their reality or a self proclaimed guru like I've seen on
this site too many times (Though I've seen some who have completely awed me). I simply have discovered my truth and am ready to dedicate the rest of
my life to it. I come here in order to have my ideas and ideals scrutinized by the eyes of the objective and non-objective so I may better form them
into manifestations. As well as exercise my new found personality by sharing opinions in light of my personality filter. All in all, I'll be happy
if I can contribute even the slightest to the personal and collective freedom of us all, and to that of all sentient beings.