posted on Oct, 23 2012 @ 05:38 PM
If the mods decide to delete this, then so be it - but this is a rather dramatic and pivotal time in my life, so I wanted to share in the hope that
someone else follows suit.
Short background - I was a tier 1 operator in the Australian Special Forces (Commandos), and was unlucky enough to be extremely sleep deprived and
overworked on deployment (Afghanistan).
We were being inserted via blackhawk in the dead of night, and I miscounted my descent - ended up falling and landing on my feet from 4m (12 feet
approx), which shattered my knees and ruptured the discs in my lower back.
Long story short, I went through extensive rehab, but carry the degenerative and long term chronic pain of my injuries. I was prescribed strong
painkillers, but eventually came down to over the counter nurofen + codeine, which I have taken almost non stop for the past 8 years.
I've justified taking it constantly for these reasons
1. I deserve to be without pain!
2. It's chronic pain, why should I live with it?
3. It's over the counter
This all stopped when I looked back and realised that there have been periods where the pain hasn't been too bad, and I could easily cope without
taking them ... but I still take them.
I was taking them for the slightly euphoric sensation, I was taking them because my body is so used to taking them ... I was no longer in control of
my body's dependance on these drugs.
So I stopped. I tapered down over the course of 2 weeks, and 48 hours ago I stopped. I've had pretty bad diorreah, cramps, headache, nausea, and a
general feeling of being 'flat" - but I know this will pass.
I'm looking forward to not being reliant on little white tablets to get through the day.
Probably doesn't help that I also gave up cigarettes at pretty much the same time.
I'm either brave or mad.
Hope someone reads this and gets something out of it. If the mods think this is in breach of the T+C's, then I humbly apologize, and please don't be
too angry, as I'm pretty delicate at the moment