posted on Oct, 22 2012 @ 11:25 AM
Hello fellow humans.
Firstly I want to apologize for any spelling or grammar mistakes in advance, for English is my second language.
I am very glad to have found ATS, and like I noticed many post, I have read quite a bit before making an account. I guess you can say I do not open up
easily, even online.
I was born in Bosnia and Herzegovina, 6 years before the war started. Google "Bosnia war" if you are interested. Being a war child, I feel has had
some effects on my growing process, possibly even my train of thought.
I lived in Bosnia during the whole war, and though I don't remember much I do remember some things, like the sounds of the mortars whistling through
the air and landing very close by. I remember running away with my mother, seeking bomb shelter, at many times of the day and night.
Like many people in Bosnia during that time, we sought a way out. We wanted no part of it, we just wanted to live peacefully. So in 1996 my parents
managed to get the government of Canada to sponsor us, that has been my home now for about 15 years, and I love the country.
I guess you can say I am a happy person, and very friendly. I prefer no conflict if possible. I love the people in my life, my family, and my friends.
So enough about all that, if you would like to know more, I would love to talk to you.
Like I said, I have been "creeping" (if you want to put it that way) this website for a while now, probably about a year, maybe less, mainly because
of certain experiences in my life, most of which I do not remember in full detail to explain here.
Although one experience, that happened to me a little over 3 weeks ago has pretty much forced me to make an account on ATS. I am unsure what it is,
and I don't like drawing blanks.
I was with my girlfriend at her house, about 1 hour into sleep (around midnight), now I am unsure if I was dreaming or not, but what I do know is this
felt all too real to be a dream, but then again I could be wrong, my dreams can feel very real sometimes.
In the split second this "feeling" came to me, I felt like my whole body was "buzzing" or "vibrating", with the uneasy feeling of having
absolutely zero control of the situation. I tried to shout "HELP!" because I thought something seriously wrong was happening to me. My shouts were
barely whispers, I could not yell at all. Two seconds later i snapped out of it, sweating, scared, I started crying. Keep in mind I do not do drugs of
any kind, although I like to have a drink occasionally. This night, and 10+ days previous to this, I had nothing to drink.
I wish someone could guide me to some lead, I would really like to know what happened to me. This is unlike anything I have ever experienced
I have always loved this website, since I found it. I am glad to be here, and I really hope to meet some interesting people.
Love and peace to everyone.