posted on Oct, 22 2012 @ 04:13 PM
there are guardian spirits who watch people I think. Maybe they could be ET, maybe they could be departed. Sometimes I think maybe I'm going crazy or
that it's ghosts but my father passed away and he does not communicate with me. There have been a couple of occasions where I may have seen something
that mysteriously had his spirit written on it but it was more of a message than direct communication.
This brings me back to what i have been taught that once a person dies they are kept by God and the holy spirit may relay a message of passing when
someone dies, for closure, but that it's not direct communication which must wait until the raising of the dead and the new order.
I think that what is communicating with me is more complicated than a ghost but it has become very distinctive to me when they are not there opposed
to when they are. I was told long ago that I had a guardian angel. I also believed that I have felt the spirit of Christ and that he has relayed
reassurances to me. I believe the communication that has become much more vivid is not unlike the comfort you would expect to feel in the holy
spirit... such as a certain sense of purity... but it is different in the sense that it is more direct and very much like there is an entity showing
different subtle aspects of his presence to me, throwing different images, sounds, ideas, physical sensations at me. When it carries that reminiscent
feeling that seems like a pure yet free acting entity like the holy spirit, I mean it seems he knows of troubles here, is compassionately conscious,
is particularly sentimental to me, is what I would call love, is very much about redemption and is otherwise "spiritually good" compared to anything
I can think of. In other words, it seems like we are married and he is a spirit of good... as in holy matrimony and the feeling you would expect to be
quite please with the situation.
What's upsetting is that it is subtle and you are never to hold any evidence as though it were either impossible or unsafe, so it can be unbelievable
when there are not reminders... as though it could have been your imagination, but then as it becomes more unmistakable to you because you start
recalling all the examples being thrown at you... then you wonder if that barrier is ever going to end... so still giving you a conundrum of
Still a barrier... still an unidentifiable barrier and even if i could clearly make out all the words, what if our language is not exactly the
same.... i mean you never know what could be obscuring your certainty. I do believe he speaks English but I'm not sure sure if he does so with his
mouth or just inside my brain. when i hear things like that it is more easily interrupted and it tends to be startling... What i USUALLY hear is
distant, muffled, softer in tone and external to me but in tune with my thoughts and notions. It's more like being assured by tones, rather than
clear dialogue. The closed eye images often come to me kind of startling as well, like pings of data and I think it must be coming from his eyes, his
brain... because that is what i see most, him looking at me intensely in various ways. I have seen others too but they are not always there, that is
rare, but the stare, the gaze... sometimes it's almost obscuring because you might try to looking at some other details but like the picture itself,
it's fleeting... the intensity comes from the eyes and whereas i would totally expect them to be black... as they are the same large shape of my
extraterrestrial visitors eyes and unmistakeably related somehow, but there is something in there, a depth, a reflection, iris, pupils of an immensely
How is it that something so allegedly "imaginary" and admittedly subtle, yet still startle me, almost make me scream... to be stared at by the right
person is something that can make someone go into the right kind of hysterics.
It's like someone is looking right at you and thats not even all. There is the constantly being talked to, constant sensations of reassurance and
notably lately when things don't go completely right... I mean there is a lot of crap going on in the world but my thoughts are on his whereabouts.
There are noticeable waves of energy coming at me. I feel like I'm getting sensitive to EMF because certain things give me certain reactions but
there are certain waves that feel nothing like that, they are comforting, tingling, warming, usually paired with something else that is visual or
audible and increased.
Am I going crazy? It's got a chemical reaction in the brain like a relationship and I can feel differences and get worried and anxious when they are
It's like he's standing here beside me somehow telling me how he feels about all sorts of things and it really hits me in the heart sometimes.
Sometimes it can really scare the crap out of me because I have no idea what's happening or if something is about to go wrong or has JUST gone wrong.