continued - I ran out of room
3 months after she died I threw out all the medication.
That was 1995.
I spent the next 14 yrs never touching ANY drugs, medication, or alcohol. I just drink TONS of coffee.
I worked that whole time in human services helping people with mental health problems.
I burned through relations with coworkers so bad I had to always work multiple jobs, so I had a back up in case I got fired. This was fine with me. I
usually had a lot of energy so it was easy for me to pull double shifts 2nd into 3rd then hit home to sleep.
I had problems in school. Smart but really difficult to organize my thoughts.
I wanted to go back to school. I was in my early 30s then and thought maybe I should get tested for ADHD since the meds would help me get through
They did a ton of tests and evaluations for the assessment.
So that diagnosis was ADHD & PTSD ( from traumas not war)
That Dr explain how my brain processed information differently.
He also went on and on about how many people usually get bipolar diagnosis first, since the cycles look similar. The ADHD cycles are rapid
daily/hourly vs the bipolar that span weeks/months.
So I was on ADHD medication. This would've been great but I had a bad incident happen.
I contracted a parasitic infection that penetrated the blood brain barrier.
They treated it. (I just didn't know it wasn't gone)
At the same time I put in for a case manager position that involved a lot of paperwork. It probably would've been a great job for someone who is
organized and used to tedious boring paperwork piles. But not me. I had 2 panic attacks that landed me in the ER within 2 months of getting the new
I have to skip a bunch of stuff, it's all about that infection.
So on to my last hospitalization.
Some infections cause psychosis. I had to argue with Dr to rule out a medical cause(infection) for my episodes.
They tested for the infection I was previously treated for and I was still positive for it.
So they adjusted the initial assessment from nonspecific mood disorder to mood disorder w/ psychosis and added the medical cause(infection) so I could
be given my antibiotics with mood stabilizers/anti-psychotics. I still didn't like them and they didn't work.
The medication has to match the DSM -IV diagnosis and treatment.
Someone asked you about Adderall. That is a stimulant used to treat ADHD.
Most people with undiagnosed ADHD will gravitate toward stimulants.Coffee, amphetamine, and illegal uppers.
I am still fighting my infection - I didn't name it because there is a lot of controversy and a few conspiracy theories about it too.
It is one that exacerbates mood symptoms.
I'm still working all of this out.
I can see why people don't like their meds. It really sucks walking around like a senseless zombie.
edit on 10/22/2012 by obnoxiouschick
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