Listening to the point of view of the observer of an unmedicated bi-polar is an eye opener. I should probably describe for those who don't know,
however, what it feels like to be a medicated bi-polar sufferer...
This is my personal experience - others may obviously have quite a different experience.
The most negative side effect, for me, was that as soon as I started taking meds, I got "tracking" or after-effects of light flashes when following
cars who turned on their turn signals, even during the day. It was very trippy. I felt anything but normal, and felt like it was iffy whether or not
I should be driving on the meds. I actually had a hard time believing that many people feel so much better on meds and feel more "normal" and
I did not feel "better" either immediately, or in the weeks to come. Instead I felt very tired and worn out. It was a struggle to get up and get
going every day.
I felt "dumbed down" and struggled to come up with words that are normally on the tip of my tongue. This did not interfere with day-to-day
activities, but at work it quickly made me feel I was not bringing my best game. I am an IT professional, I work with computers, both daily
operations and programming. I have to be able to think clearly in my job, I cannot just perform my job duties by "rote".
I lost libido and had little interest in sex. I also gained weight. These may have been related.
My husband did not approve of my taking the meds. He did not like my personality when I was on them. Neither did I. This caused conflicts in my
relationship as he opposed my taking the meds, while I tried to defend them, because my doctors said it was critical to my well being, even though I
didn't feel like they were helping me, at all.
I felt like everything was slowed down and muffled. I felt like I was removed and out-of-sorts, like being sick or very tired. I had been led to
believe by the Psychiatrist(s) that taking meds would fix my problems. I thought that meant that I would feel like I felt before I ever realized I
had any problems. Not true. At this point I have been out of treatment for a long time, and doing well. I would have to suffer a serious psychotic
break to go back.
I feel like I am arguing a losing side, but I will not give up. I have thrived for the past fourteen years without medication. I do, however
recognize that my symptoms are less severe than others on this site, and I absolutely recognize that medication works for many people. I am happy for
whatever works for people and we are all different. If you have a treatment plan, and it is working for you now, please continue with it!!! Love and
hugs to all!
I am just describing my own experience, for the record, not trying to derail or berate anybody who is using medications and they are working for them.
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