new_here your courage has allowed me to open up. I have been avoiding just talking to someone. I thank you for making it possible to speak to her.
Thank you. I needed this. You are very brave, very strong.
I still think about you. Whenever I hear someone talk about you, you make me proud to have been raised by you, to have shared a home with you, to have
been taught so well by you.
I miss the nights we would all climb onto your big ass bed and watch unsolved mysteries, and we would all fall asleep like puppies around you.
I remember dancing with you at that party, how much fun you were. I remember that day at the BBQ I didn't want to go with you, I had a great time. I
was looking at the picture we took together, It made me smile.
I remember the day your prognosis was final. I should have stayed with you some more, but I had to get out of there. I remember screaming in my car. I
know you wanted to beat it. I know you believed you could, you deserved it. How many people did you save...... and no one could save you.
I am sorry for ditching you on my birthday that time. It was our day, not just my day. I know it was hard being alone with me after everyone left to
college and dad was long since out of the house.
I never understood then why you would lay catatonic in bed after....but I understand your world crashed down. But you got the hell out of that bed,
and went back to school, and validated your degree again. You worked 16 hours a day for a long time. We always tried to keep the house clean and make
it spotless before you came back in the morning. I admire you so much for what you did. You were amazing. I understand now how titanic your effort
My friends really miss you. Kyle always says you were his second mother. Alex still calls you mom. My sisters still keep a great relationship because
of you. I have promised to make up with them, and am trying. I know you would like for us to be together again. We will be one day. I give you my
word. I forgive them.
Mom, I want you to know that I will get my pilots license one day. I will fly you around the world like I always promised. I carry you with me
everywhere now. I still have that chain you gave me, though I am sorry it is all I have of the many things you gave me to show me you always
remembered me. I am dressing nice now. You would like it.
The wife is good. She keeps a picture of you, the one form your graduation, the black and white one where you look like that actress you liked...I
can't remember her name, she still loves you.
Aixa has the teddy you gave her. It is on her bed and she sleeps with it every day. I always remind her who gave it to her. It has gotten skinny, but
I am going to re-stuff it. Our house is full of pictures of you.
Mimi is with you now. I send her my love. Our radio to god is now with god, but she taught us well. Tata is going to be soon with you both. I can't
believe all the women that made me will soon be together again, and I am still here without you guys. I don't talk to tata enough, but I am going to
call her today.
Me and dad went to your grave before I left. We were there together with you....can you imagine! We get along well now. He is alone now. His wife is
an ass, you wouldn't like her, but don't worry, everyone reminds her she will never replace you. She knows her place. Dad still loves you. I get it
now. I know why you never stopped loving him. it took me getting married to understand, but I do. You were not weak for it. You were so strong.
You have made me so strong mom. You would be so proud of me. I am doing ok, but I am a really happy now. Everything worked out. I will be more than
OK. I am going to enlist soon. I know that you always supported me in all I did. You are going to love me in uniform. I am going to keep living with
honor, and integrity like you taught me.
I still mind my manners. It gets harder, and I slip up now and then, but your voice always comes to me. Thank you.
They still have that plaque in the hospital they put up for you. They kept the prayer room dedicated to you. The nurses still use it. Leticia's friend
just became a nurse, she works in your old hospital. The girls still work there, and they all still remember you. They still go in there and pray with
Aixa is really big now. She looks just like you mom. She is beautiful. She has Miriam's hair, and abuelitas body. She is going to be really tall. That
picture you took with her upstairs on thanks giving is in her room. I think she was talking to you the other day. She loves you so much. We are happy.
You would love Miriam's girls. They look like Adams family, but they have our genes in there too. They are beautiful. You would love your
I know you hear me. I know you are here with me now. Thank you. Thank you for protecting me. for making me strong. For keeping my heart preserved. For
teaching me to live with honor. To be gentle. To be caring. To be kind. Thank you for making me a worthy man. You are the fire of my spirit. Your life
was a worthy and noble one.
I am sorry for all the grief I gave you, it must have been really hard. You inspire me. I will make you proud. You always let me know that. I will
never let you down mom.
I love you mom. I miss you.
Thank you. You were a great mother and friend. We miss you....
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