reply to post by Katharos62191
Im also going through a bad break up , its been 5 months now since we were together.
The relationship was 5+ years and i really miss the girl.
On the contrary i really shouldnt miss her and be glad to be away as it was one hell of a ride...
Domestic abuse sucks .... and being a guy it sucks even more as we're meant to be above all that stuff ....
.....apparently
I was beat up by 8 of her friends for over 7 hours... getting choked out and losing consciousness over 5 - 10 times , head buried in sand....
threatened with knives , tried to break my legs.... endless list here.... all because she made a lie up about me that i pushed her down a hill ....
which hand on heart i did not do! all lies !
i took her to portugal (for her birthday aswell).... she tried to lie in the middle of a road to get run over and i saved her.... she beat me for
hours for that.... i would never lift a hand to a female....
I had cars driven at me to run me down because she was angry about a load of nothing....
i witnessed her take an overdose of prescription depression tablets.... i had to hope she was ok...
she wanted to become a nurse so everything she did to both me and herself , i had to hide for 'our' future together.
She threw a mini motorcycle at me.... beat me with an iron and chased me for hours around the house with it... smacked me all over... i couldnt start
my fitness refime as i was unable to do a single press up as my wrist was so badly damaged.... the doctor laughed when i told her what happened...
what the heck....
i lied to police a second time she tried to get herself run over by a car... and almost spent 5 days in jail for lying to police and ambulance as they
said it was a domestic and we would both be in jail over the long weekend until seen before a judge on the tuesday... this happened on the thusday.
I had a piranha fish tank kicked and smashed because she was in a rage....
I was smashed over the head and ear many times with stilleto heels
face ripped apart by her nails...
smashed over the eye and head with a bottle of kalembu mamajuana after 2 weeks in the caribbean...
almost died as she hit a major artery... almost blinded also.....
saved her life after she tried to jump down her parents stairs from top to bottom head first... i saved her only by one ankle luckily.... she beat me
for 4 hours for saving her.....
didnt call police or ambulance yet again as she wanted to become a nurse and i was looking for her and my future... 'our' future .
As all of these events happen she has massive black pupils... foams at the mouth , and makes loud shrieks!!
bi polar and schizophrenia also runs in her family.
She was banned from my parents house for a long time for many loud abusive outbursts in the house and on the street!!
Shes actually a carer for the elderly aswell!!! what the heck.... cares for them but beat me senseless...
cheated on me 5 - 10 times.... broke my livelihood as i am an it technician with my own business ...broke over 10 of my laptops by putting them in a
fishtank and bath and using a screwdriver on them... then blames me for not bringing money in that month!!
The list is honestly endless......
I feel bad with all this ... and i feel even worse i never did anything legally about it at the time and got her the help she needed... i just felt so
much shame as i am a guy and she is a female.... meant to be able to handle it and all that!!!
I 'STILL' miss her though and i feel so alone now..... i am 26 and it feels i have no body really as she pulled me away from my friends , now they all
have lives of their own.....
It hurts real bad to think about all this....
It sure has been a dilmena to say the least.....
Feels like i am in a state of stockholm syndrome.... the good times were real good.... but the bad times were unbelievably bad!!! she is also
beautiful on the outside which plays a big part of my pain....
I would always protect her at all costs... I feel so silly now , but cant get my head around all of the above.
I gave her my heart and wholeness and she always threw it right back with violence , weapons and promiscuity.
How do i get past 'this' ???? I'll tell you one thing.....
Its extremely difficult...... i dont have anyone now it seems
edit on 17-10-2012 by the2010apprentice because: spelling error
edit on 17-10-2012 by the2010apprentice because: spelling
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edit on 17-10-2012 by the2010apprentice because: spelling error
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spelling error