posted on Oct, 17 2012 @ 07:03 PM
I was introduced to this site about 4 years ago by my little brother. Our whole family thought he was going a bit loopy after talking about 2012 a
bit and different dimensions and so on.. We all thought that he was a bit of a conspiracy theorist and because theories are theories my closed mind
wouldn't have much of it. To say that nothing resonated with me would be a lie of course as I wanted to understand where my brother was coming from
because I loved him and didn't want to believe that he was crazy.
During a family trip 4 years ago I stayed up all night with my brother and asked him questions and listened with an open mind on all types of subjects
and things that he was following. Enough of what was said that night ( the actual conversations are irrelevant at this point) sparked my interest and
spent the better part of two years or so glued to ats as well as a few other sites as some of my beliefs were changed, some of the theories got my
outraged, and for the most part new that talking about some of this stuff with my friends wasn't the way to go.
A little over two years ago I decided to go work on a cruise ship as it had always been a goal of mine. Two years in the south pacific with no t.v.
was a blessing but the work although fun was tiring and very fake for the most part. I was an assistant cruise director and was hosting all sorts of
events to themed parties and karaoke, so on.. I figured I would do this for about 5 years or so and change careers at that point. I returned home
from my last contract in June with my now ex girlfriend from Croatia and new as soon as I arrived I didn't want to go back. This didn't bode well
with the gf as we had planned to go back together. We still talk and ended things on good terms.
What to do now? Well, I live in the Vancouver area and my best friend and lots of people I know live on Vancouver Island, in Victoria. I decided to
move there and look for work because it is such a beautiful place. My family all lives a few hours away on the mainland. I was having a hard time
deciding what I wanted to do and aligned with looking for work I was again browsing this site.
I realize that it is easy to get caught up in all of this and the point I was at in my life was in the What is my purpose? Why am I here? realm.
I've always believed that meditating was a good way to get grounded with yourself although have never really tried it properly or for any length of
time. I decided to try a guided meditation on balancing the chakras. Wow, was I shocked. I actually felt the energy during the meditation and even
though I believed in chakras it was still a shock to me. Then it got interesting.
Instead of spending most of my time looking for work I would go to the beach and try silencing my thoughts using a technique I learnt on Spirit
Science like counting down from 100 or saying reset in my head when I'd get off track. The first day I must have spent four hours at the beach
trying to meditate in intervals of about 45 mins or so. I could feel a tingling or vibrating sensation through me and was getting pretty scared
because physically something was happening. Well on the second day, a couple hours in and the vibrating got stronger. I was able to remember back to
reading somewhere to just experience whatever the feeling you were having without judgement and when I did this the fear went away. Not only did the
fear go away but I had a very profound experience. All within a split second, the vibrating didn't stop at my body because I was not connected to
everything. I didn't see anything ( eyes were closed) but the feeling of oneness and connection to everything was overwhelming. To anyone that's
had a similar experience they know it's impossible to explain. I lost my fear of death ( which I didn't even know I had) and truly had a all
knowing of everything so to speak. This feeling was pure energy and all I can really say is WOW. When I came out of my meditation I stood up and
looked at the world around me. I still felt connected and was still vibrating to an extent. The world almost seemed like a grid and everything was
so beautiful and I was so at peace.
I tried telling my friends about conciousness and everything being connected and about my experience. I realized quick that they thought I was having
a breakdown. We went to the bar that night and it was too overwhelming. Seeing everyone as a reflection of myslelf and having no judgment towards
anybody was difficult for me to handle as it was such a new paradigm.
I moved home a couple of days later because I felt like it was time to have a proper relationship with my family whom I had been distanced from since
I was 17 ( now 32) when I left home for the first time. I moved in with my brother and have told my family about the experience and how living in
the now is how I have to live my life. Besides my brother they got a little worried but have seen a change in me that has really got them wondering
what happened. Trusting the universe and running on feelings while questioning all my thoughts it's not an easy thing to do. I now have a hundred
dollars to my name, no idea what my next move is but I'm not worried because this is my experience.
I don't want to change anyone's views just my own. I feel that ats is a good place for me at this moment so as to have my view heard ( as it is
shared by many) and answer any questions that anyone denying ignorance has. I will change the world by changing just one person. That person is
I still get spontaneous vibrations in my body but have not been able to get back to the oneness of that meditation experience. It'll just take
practice and because I know it is possible I'm just expecting something to happen. This is what's holding me back and I will overcome it.
Peace and love to anyone that reads this Intro.