posted on Oct, 21 2012 @ 08:01 AM
it is a loaded question, sure ive replied before but i have more to say. ive been putting lots of thought into this date for years and years now, im
almost sad the date is here because theres no longer any date to look forward too. (though im sure the doom porn will find another glamourous date,
but id rather be honest and say im addicted to the doom porn than lie and try convince you and myself) ive really found myself thinking on more of a
down to earth level, such as "should i stay home on the 20th and 21st? why? only because im not worried about aliens landing or pole shifts etc, im
more worried about civil unrest and people who DO believe its the end of the world. i wonder maybe i should call in sick to protect the family. the
only thing ive really "gained" from knowing and intensely researching this 2012 garbage is mental preparation. meaning i feel ready for the date.
others who havent prepared or have shrugged it off and havent done any research will be more prone to fall into panic mode.
i mean if people truly believe its the end of the world as the media portrays, then whats to stop them from just going from house to house to looting
and raping and killing whom they please, i mean why not? or whats to say the supermarket wont be out of food for a month as its all bought out. so you
see i find myself in more of a down to earth survival mode, really wondering "can i afford a months worth of food to stockpile on my paycheck to
paycheck income?" or "am i truly prepared to take someones life who intrudes into my home with the intent to take mine or a family members?"
questions like "am i mentally prepared to see the world go nuts and my family go nuts as i have to be the voice of reason?" its a very odd mix of
feelings because im truly ready to die if something extraordinary happens mass cataclysm, and im spiritually and mentally prepared to accept something
such as an alien landing or nwo, or non apocalyptic. so im completely prepared for the big stuff, but its the down to earth smaller things that really
and if you read my former post i truly believe the only thing happening will be man made, so yeah i do plan on going to work the 22nd and forking out
tons of money for the materialistic holiday called xmas. alot of the fear goes beyond "2012" but also to 2013. ill be the first to admit i have
wasted alot of mental energy and reason on this 2012 nonsense, and im easily a doom porn addict. so come 2013 ill be facing a new world, a new look on
life, and its very scary to me. ive always had this dec 21st 2012 date as almost a security or comfort concept in my head, constantly getting stressed
over the years saying "only a few more years to go.. a couple years, a year, half a year, to now 2 months, to eventually its here and its gone."
then what? ive wasted all those years worried and preparing for some stupid date thats nothing more than social hype.
ive held myself back in life because of this date, its been a problem for me i wont lie.even now i find myself "trapped" by this date. so for me
personally dec 21st does offer an "end" to something, offers an end to me getting caught up in the bull, going through this i know i will not allow
myself to get caught up in it, the doom porn will always be there, but 2013 will find me with a rational mind, no longer giving into nonsense. i
really only can blame myself for giving into 2012 so much so that it controls my life in many ways, and for what? i mean if your time comes, your time
comes, and it doesnt matter how its delivered, whether a giant meteor, or 1 single misguided person who thinks the worlds going to end, barging into
the house and murdering me. sorry for the long rant, but i find myself just really facing this "fantasy date" with a very level headed view and i
can tell you this, all my studying, research, and imagination over the years, and believe me i have put in alot of time, has all led to this; i know
no more than the next guy what will happen 2 months from today, i truly dont. i know how to react to many scenarios, i know how to respond, but truly
i do not know, and i will be very grateful the 22nd. maybe disappointed in some way deep down, but grateful.
we miss the important things in life, were too busy on the fleeting material things. 2013 will find me focusing more on my relationship with God and
my family, stopping to smell the roses, what good lasting thing does money buy? so while 2012 i cannot tell you what happens, i can tell you what
happens on the 22nd, and that is rationalism hopefully, because the world has enough problems of its own without doom fantasy.