posted on Oct, 14 2012 @ 05:02 PM
I will post this now before it is National News. I have refrained from using too much graphic detail.
Today I witnessed a tragic event. While I was at the Gun Range this afternoon a local man turned the gun on himself and took his own life. I heard
the shot, saw the destruction of his face along with all the gore, peoples reactions, The panic that perused afterwards. I don't remember driving
home, now I am here a few hours later and since then my wife has told me I have blanked out several times. I have 8 missed calls from the local news
stations asking for a statement. Two reporters have been to my house. I don't know how they got my number or address.
I have been to war, I have not ever had a flashback from this conflict. Never had any symptoms of PTSD. My wife has already called a therapist for me
to talk to tomorrow because she is very worried. When I get home I have a set routine check on the baby and go out back and play with the dogs. I have
been in bed since about 1:30 staring at the ceiling. Not having any interest in either. Wondering if I could have stopped this man, If he could have
turned the gun on me or other patrons. It's crazy I was sitting outside having a cigarette with this man just a few minutes earlier. He gave no signs
no warnings. If he had said anything I would have told the range master.
Since the suicide this afternoon my brain is recounting past events and I cant stop it. I have had very personal events with suicide and now they all
keep flooding my head...I can't stop them. Sorry if this post seems more like rambling.
I DO NOT WANT A SECOND AMENDMENT ARGUMENT HERE. MODS PLEASE KEEP PEOPLE ON TOPIC. IF THIS MAN WAS THIS DISTURBED HE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ANYWAYS.
I just don't know.....