I was bullied when I was a kid. I was a pacifist. Family of mostly women. They always talked all the peaceful warrior crap.
It wasn't until I was slightly mentally unstable because of it, and started fighting back that I got a hold over the situation. I gained in a year all
the self esteem I had dragged through the mud. I regained confidence in myself, and went on to never let that sort of thing happen to me or anyone
Most people don't know what it is like to be bullied. They give all this advice, but it never helps,, it usually gets your nose broken, or your pride
I went through almost 7 years of this throughout most of grade school. I got all the advice anyone would give.
It wasn't until I had enough and something inside me broke, that I was able to stop it, BY FIGHTING. I then remained tempered by all my years of
cruelty and abuse on my end, but strong and defiant because of it. I never lost sight of how it really feels, so I never did it to anyone.
In a way I have to thank them, all those A holes. They made me indestructible for the most part, and showed me the true power of my tempered rage.
This subject really gets to me. I hear my daughter come home talking about a name she was called, and I want to go kick the kids fathers ass....LOL..I
don't of course, but it really sits in my core. I am the under dogs champion for it.
You have to fight back. You can't just take it. I was lucky, had I failed when I lashed out and went completely berserk and ape....I would have gone
into a dark place.
I remember the first fight I fought back. The kid just kicked my ass, and I was watching my blood on the ground and my tears falling, and I just got
up and told him to meet me there tomorrow same time. He did, and I F-ed him up. The kids made fun of me all day that day. It wasn't until they saw me
fight him that most left me alone and some even became my friends.
I then picked a fight with another kid who was absent that day, and came to start with me in usual fashion. I asked him to wait for me after his
basket ball game. I went there, F-ed him up, and looked him deep in the eyes and told him to never bother me again...in not so polite words. He was
scared of me.
I felt like a GOD! That night I walked home under the constellation of Orion and claimed a star in honor of my victory. I had been nervous before
while walking up to the school, and prayed to him for a "good hunt"....It was one of the most important nights of my life. He was so clear and
dominating in the sky. Very appropriate I think.
I used violence to end violence. All the other crap only made my blood and tears flow.
STAND UP FOR YOUR SELVES AND DEFEND ALL THAT YOU ARE! You are worth it.
HOLD IT DOWN!
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