posted on Oct, 15 2012 @ 12:54 AM
Like someone already said, I also hate war but tend to like soldiers. My grandfather fought in WW2, turned down an office job to fight the Nazis, got
shot through the shoulder, taken hostage and was later rescued and raised a family! My father always liked his soldier buddies. When he had a
construction job (before becoming a chef) my dad really liked his co-workers, many of whom were veterans. The veterans I have met are all good guys.
Down to earth, honest, trustworthy.
As for the excitement of war, I have read about that sort of thing. Elliot Ness (from the Untouchables) found his job very exciting, being very
dangerous and full of uncertainty. Some people are just more suited for danger. I've seen documentaries on policemen (and under-covers) who find
their work exciting. I have a relative who was in the Canadian secret service and she found it exciting. I think the psychologist you saw was very
wrong in calling you crazy. I can understand how the statement might shock her, looking at it in terms of the tragedy side of war. But I can
understand being detached from it and experiencing it as excitement. To some this would just seem psychopathic. Some soldiers do return pretty messed
up after war and are very scary people. Certainly anyone in combat was deeply shaken by it, but many handle it pretty well (in being honorable and
The issue of excitement in the face of danger and chaos is probably hard for most to understand, unless they've tried it some sense. I think it's a
spiritual thing, but one which likely wouldn't make much sense to a more Christian-leaning society (of "turn the other cheek.”) Of course, peace
is not always the answer. Hitler couldn't be stopped with "peaceful resistance". A lot of people have issues with the Iraq war, which would easily
fall upon you, as you were there. I had a friend whose friendship I lost after he joined the Canadian military, as I disagreed with him on war. We
simply had different views. He was wrong to think I didn't respect him though. I respected, and do respect him, very highly. Again, he's a smart,
honest and honorable man. I wish more people were like that!
Sorry to hear about the woman you lost. I've made similar mistakes in my past, turning away from people I loved for my own passions, until I lost
them. Someone else will always come along. In the meantime, it's best to find something positive to keep you busy. Tomorrow is a new day!