I've the habit of considering the "Father" symbol as being what could be termed the "Super Ego", or the "conscience"? KInd of the ultimate ideals one
has? They can be often rather unrealistic, so not completely possible in this world, therefore take on a rather severe or over-demanding nature
(especially when young).
Captain Kirk was an avatar of my Father figure when I was young! My dad took off when I was little.
Then I gained a stepfather when I was 14 and really admired him and embraced him as my ultimate father figure.
He is a Psychoanalyst and Professor of Philosophy though, and as I became an adult, these values that were so exclusively intellectual weren't
realistic for me at all, as I am very physical and sensual in nature.
One night I had a dream, in which I saw my head from above and saw it open up and expose my brain, and a voice said loudly "Your Father is going to
die!"
At the time, I wondered if it might mean my stepdad would literally pass away...
But this was soon after I changed countries, and was about to undergo a lot of inner changes, and challenges to my previous values and views.
Later I became attached to someone else as my ideal Father symbol, Buck Brannaman, a horse trainer. He just embodied a lot of characteristics that I
idealize and would like to integrate and develop in myself.
This is him and I
A movie was made about him recently, that was able to illustrate the qualities he has which are admirable- a really effective mix of strength of will
with sensitivity and compassion!
A lot of the significance of my own work with horses is spiritual and psychological for me, in the way Freud used the metaphor of a horse and rider, I
see at as development of a collaborative relationship between my intellect and emotions, therefore, a horse trainer is a very effective figurehead for
a super conscience!
edit on 30-9-2012 by Bluesma because: (no reason given)
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