I have recently just joined the site. I have been browsing ATS for a while now and decided to finally take the plunge into this community.
First and foremost, when messing around on my profile page, I found a simple spelling error that needs to be corrected.
Anyway onto the reason I joined ATS.
I have recently(in the past several years) found my true sense of spirituality. It has made me a much better person in general. I will explain my
story first and then how I found God's glory.
It all started with me trying to find my reason for being on Earth. This lead me to research the Bible, attending church sermons, and studying a
little into Aztech and ancient civilizations. I felt shunned away from the churches as a result of telling my life's story. I felt like an outcast
for the longest time, and it made me question God and the Bible, I felt as if I was abandoned.
This abandonment that I felt led to depression, immoral decisions, and just an overall crappy life growing up. Finally, one day I was introduced to
God through one of the most wonderful experiences of my life. So wonderful that it is even hard to describe the sheer joy and happiness that I had.
Before I dive into this experience you will need to place yourself in my shoes.
I was 14, I had a whopping 3 friends at most. One of my buddies, was a nice kid, he was like me in some ways, he wanted to feel like he meant
something to someone. Yes, he had friends, but not many, our group of friends was always picked on just because we did not do what everyone else did.
He felt completely lost, so lost that he decided to take his own life.
Losing a best friend was the hardest thing I ever went through, I felt like a bad friend, and a horrible person in general (I don't know why). This
led me into a down-ward spiral into depression and drug use. My drug use led me to legal trouble and legal trouble led me to more depression. I was
not living life, I was so depressed that I too wanted to take my own life, but some unknown force was able to keep me from doing so.
Finally, I hit rock bottom, and I had to find something that made me feel happy, and not just numb. Long and behold that something was God.
Here is how I met him.
Throughout my 'drug use' I wanted to experiment with different substances. Lsd, mushrooms, and everything except for sticking a needle in my arm.
Finally one day I came across something called ayahuasca, and let me just say now that if I never found this wonderful thing, I would probably be dead
under some bridge.
This strange experience was profound. I had a vision, so vivid, and so glorious. The vision started out with me being taken up into the sky by some
celestial lift. It took me up into a circular room that was all made of stone. This room was plain, except it had a locked door on the floor (like a
cellar) and a ladder that went up to an unlocked attic like place. Being the only place to go, I climbed the ladder, and at the top was the most
magnificent place I have ever seen.
Once I was in this attic place, it was just white, as if I was on clouds. With a golden gate that was guarded with 2 phoenix like creatures. They
nodded their heads and the gates opened. Let me tell you, I saw what I perceived to be Heaven that day. Being in this area was just so calming. I
remember that once in the gates I was approached by the whitest light, and orb, and somehow it spoke to me telepathically.
I asked this orb if it was God, and it transmitted to me, "I am the one you have been seeking." I asked it why I was having a bad life and it
replied, "It's all part of the plan." I was astonished and asked if I am doing things right in life, and which it's reply was "Your doing alright
in life, you have made the first step, you will know what to do from here on." I asked how and the light projected an arm that reached out to me and
poked me in the forehead, and as this happened I fell back into my body.
Completely out of the vision I was back in my own body, I never even wanted to leave that place. But ever since I have to say things changed, I know
what I must do. I don't really know how to explain it, but it changed me.
My grades in school started to improve, I stopped doing drugs (except for occasionally smoking some hemp), I started to make more friends, and I
graduated early. I knew that my life changed that day, and that I really did meet God. I was finally happy with my life, I knew that things were going
to be O.K in life, no matter what.
Needless to say, I now know my place in life. I felt as if I was brought to this community to share my experience without being ridiculed or harassed.
I am not saying that I am a prophecy or an apostle, a mind reader, or the perfect person. But I feel like I can bring positive vibes and reinforcement
into this community.
So there you have it fellow ATS members, my meaning of coming here, my introduction, and my restored faith in God. I look forward to this crazy
adventure while a member here.
Any questions? I am more than willing to answer any.
Letting me know how I did writing this would be nice so that I can create better and well formatted posts.
May the light give you wisdom,