I was cleaning out old emails this morning, and I found one titled "New Song" that I had sent to myself, had opened already, but had left live on
the server (as I do with emails that I want to come back to address for whatever reason). I opened it up (once again, apparently) and discovered this
set of verses that I must have written on May 30th of 2010. Yeah, over 2 years old and still on the email server)
The world is complicated
You've closed the door
Your scream is so frustrated
Nothin's simple anymore
So, what has me freaked out is that
- I don't remember ever writing anything like this
- I have no interest in Islam or Sharia Law - none whatsoever
- It kinda does seem like a song chorus that I would write, even if a little simplistic. Especially the line "Your scream is so frustrated" - that
line does sound like my writing
- I never would email a song chorus to myself in an email entitled "New Song" unless I wrote the damn thing myself - I have written between 80 and
100 songs, and have emailed lyrics to myself before in this manner, but never just a song chorus and never have I ever emailed someone else's lyrics
to myself in an email entitled "New Song", nor would I.
- I obviously never took this chorus and did anything with it - which, again, makes no sense, since 90% of the songs I've written came out whole,
with no need for editing, and the other 10% drove me like madness itself until the entire song was dragged out of my ass like a breach birthing
tragedy. No song has ever simply died on the vine like this one clearly did.
I've been a poet/songwriter for forty years now, so I do know exactly why this particular set of verses freaks me out like it does. It's not the
Sharia Law reference, even though that reference adds to the absolute mystery of this email. It's the fact that it does kinda seem like my own song
craft (as if I were writing a simple pop song type chorus), while completely unlike anything that would ever interest me enough to think of bothering
to write a song chorus about it. Not to be dismissive of 1 billion believers, but Islam simply doesn't interest me as a religion or as a geopolitical
threat. I honestly see the "war on terror" as a money generating contrivance that has replaced the Cold War for the military industrial complex. And
I have no idea what Sharia Law actually involves, other than people getting hands and heads lopped off for a variety of reasons. Frankly, I just
don't find the subject interesting at all.
Oh, and I did the data trail thing, and it came from me - from my email account. Yes, it could have been hijacked, but that still doesn't explain the
fact that it's a song chorus (and I'm a songwriter) and not an ad for a gay porn site or penis enlargement pills, which is the kind of embarrassing
stuff that email accounts get hijacked to spam.
So, if this is something paranormal, then what the hell is the point? And if it isn't, then what the f*ck is it? And I'm not going to bother with
the common sense geniuses that will just tell me that I wrote it and sent it to myself while I was drunk. It was emailed at 10:30 in the morning, on a
Sunday, and at that time, I was at a Catholic Church service, as usual, with my wife, who is the practicing Catholic in the family. Definitely not
Any ideas? I'm completely baffled.