I truly don’t know what to do. I love you, yet here you lay dying. Cancer. It has spread through out. Losing weight. You can hardly walk.

Are you suffering? I wish you could tell me. For the love of God, if you are, cry! Give me some kind of sign. What do you want me to do? Let you go naturally or give you a helping hand?

I just don’t know. All I know is that I miss you already. I want you waiting for me when it is my turn.

I love you. So much. I want to let you go naturally. In your sleep, yet…. I am not sure if that is best for you.

What do I do? I am at a loss….

This is awful. I will feel I made the wrong choice no matter what….

I want to cry but I can’t. I pretend nothing is wrong. Carry you outside yet you don’t need to go.

I miss you and you’re not even gone.

This I wrote during a really sad time in my life. I lost my Dog Binky to testicular cancer back in August. I wrote this when he was right at the end of his life...I was struggling and not sure what the right choice to make was....

It's never easy losing a pet. Never. But writing down my feelings at the time, really helped me to keep my calm so I could be there for him in his last moments.

He did live a wonderful and long life, making it to the ripe old age of 16....If he had just made it to September 12th he would have been 17.

Anyway, this was a private piece that I kept to myself for a while...But now I am ready to share with the world.

Thanks for sharing this!

I can relate to your feeling, as I love my pets as part of the family.
Very touching and sweet.

And your dog did live long! I lost one of my dogs this year , he was 13. Apprently old for his breed and size (big), he was really sick, he had a degenaerative problem in his back, so he didnt have any strenght in his back legs, couldnt get up withouth our help, couldnt walk anymore, etc. It was heartbreaking..
We did all we could until we had to put him to sleep..

You know, it doesnt go a day, I dont think about him..
Sometimes, I think he will appear out of somewhere...

Some things, you never get over... BUT you know, we may miss them so much, but it's good to know, they are FINE- the energy/soul never dies,- So we cant seem them now, but they are still around, somehwere.

The love ties never die or vanish!, so we are always connected to those we love so much, like our animal friends.Its just a farewell from this life-, Until we meet again