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Originally posted by DirtyLiberalHippie
My will is strong. Yet the temptation, the cravings, the habit are equal in strength. I fight every day, trying to squash your soul, yet you kick me right back, first thing in the morning. No matter how hard I fight, you are there, standing over me as soon as I wake up.
Sure, if I give into your needs, you bring me relief…. But you also bring death. Yet, if I ignore you , I suffer and choke. I might as well be dying. Shame on you. Why must you torment me? Shame on me. Why can’t I leave you?
I want to be a good example. I strive to be a great life teacher for the children in my life… Yet here I sit, telling them not to hang with you, as you rest by my side.
I am a hypocrite and you make it so. I cannot get rid of you but you will get rid of me. You are cold, heartless and cruel… You do not care.
You love for me to put my lips on you. But do you stop me? Warn me I will die? No, you just tempt me and beg me to keep going. Knowing that our relationship is volatile. You want me dead.
I hate you and I can’t get enough….
Shame on us both.